Numbness. An aggressive circumstance. A circumcision of the mind’s eye. Another lost cause. Another day directionless. Another life without effectiveness. Too many to count. Mistakes on repeat. A broken record. You and I, we never belonged here. We were mean for so much more, yet the junkyard seemed to trap us within its rusted gates. Another man’s trash is another man’s treasure. But what was it exactly that you and I treasured? Peace of mind? Security? Hope? None of those ideologies have ever existed, let a lone exist within our psyches. It’s a common human error; the neediness of the others. Why is it people think it’s alright to core-dump all of their emotional nonsense upon you and I? I’m pretty sure it is because they are selfish, self-centered weak fucks, as most of the others usually are. It’s always been this way; the weak leaning on the strong, in order to survive life itself. It is you and I who are stuck in this illusion. It is you and I, who are in fact life’s beautiful illusion.
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The Ripping Departure
It is within times such as these, when everyone around you will start to doubt your abilities, motivations, intentions, and just doubt you as a whole. There will be no support from anyone around you, and if there is, they will throw all of your failures and liabilities straight in your face. Afterwards, they will claim they didn’t mean to do it, but you know they knew exactly what they were doing. They think they know what is best for you, yet they do not know what is best for themselves. The world will always close in on you. This is why it is important to keep you distance from the others, and the external world around you. No one will ever have your best interests at hand, as you must always travel throughout the external societal world with yours clenched; ready to strike anyone down at any given moment. One must maintain extreme prejudice and protection within their body energy field, when it concerns the external world. When does survival not concern the external world? I have not lived a day within this lifetime, when I was not under attack by some type of external force or circumstance. These externals can be somewhat impulsive at times; coming for you, your life, but mostly for your very soul. The sights projected from within their beady little eyes, their perception sees you as being indebted to them. This is their perception, the insecure mental state they constantly and thoroughly live within. You may feel stuck with them at time, as these types of people will constantly keep showing up on your life’s path. They are all distractions, nothing more. Do not allow these feeble-minded sheeple to distract you from anything while you make your way down your life’s path. It may feel at times that the wings to fly away from your life’s troubles and problems have been ripped straight from your back; leaving you defenseless and motionless. You may in fact be left feeling mentally, emotionally, or even physically paralyzed from the ripping departure of what you may feel is a defense mechanism of the ability to escape any situation or circumstance you may want and/or need to flee. There is never a need to escape, as you possess the inner strength within your body energy field, to handle any type of situation which may be presented before you. You never needed wings to fly, all you ever needed to change your circumstances is contained within you. It is your mind.
Anger. Fear. Envy.
Did you know that the television, especially the ‘news’ which is ‘projected’ from it, is in actuality a laundromat for your mind. And yes, it also provides wash and fold, and ironing services. This laundromat will clean your thoughts, fold them nice and neat; and tucked away for you in a tidy compartmentalized manner. This is the ultimate in brainwashing services that money can buy. And it’s cheap too! Think of all the savings your cheapness will appreciate! It’s funny how your smart devices are actually smarter than you! It’s true! If you had any type of thought within your mind that was your own, you would realize that the images being projected from the laundromat were only there to invoke an emotion. The three dominant emotions being projected on a constant basis are: anger, fear, and envy. That’s it. These emotions are related and easily blend into one another. You may become angry because you fear succumbing to something terribly scary. You may become stricken with fear, because someone or something has become angry with you, or that unnecessary anger is targeted upon you or people such as you. Or, you are angered because you may envy the success of another who has worked for it, while you put very little effort into achieving success in your life. Fear is the chief motivator. You would give your life and everything you have achieved within it, just for safety and security. Hellen Keller once said, “Security is mostly a superstition. It does not exist in nature, nor do the children of men as a whole experience it. Avoiding danger is no safer in the long run than outright exposure. Life is either a daring adventure, or nothing.” I guess the others who are in line at the laundromat for their daily wash and fold services have already made a conscious decision to freely give their thoughts away to someone else to make. My question to you is… Who the fuck is deciding your life for you? You or the laundromat?
Some Type of Reasoning
If you feel as though you keep hitting a brick wall in life, then there must be some type of reasoning existing behind the wall. Sometimes circumstances exist to protect you, not to hinder your progress moving forward in life. Where does this protection come from? Perhaps a holy guardian angel, also known as an inner daemon? There is no exact threshold in which this knowing can fully be attained. Sometimes there will exist periods within one’s life, which simply needs to be lived through.
I am a Realist
It can be a confining feeling; being locked up within your mind your whole/hole life. There is no escape from the prison of one’s mind. A common place I have seemed to find myself in on a daily basis. There is no shelter in here, only the confining torment of the mind’s tricks and pleasures. A carousel of regrets, self-hatred, and lost opportunities. There is no escape from one’s self. To feel special and unique; this is a daydream only dreamers and deceivers fondle themselves in. I myself am a realist, as I can taste the bloodlust behind closed eyes. I can feel the temptations draining and rotting me from within. This is why I crave the isolation chamber; to keep the beast hidden from within, away from the rest of the world. No one has ever mistaken me for one of those weak-minded or weak-willed sycophants, who constantly need to be validated by complete and total strangers. The only thing worse than that, is being a stranger within one’s own mind.
A Dying Compulsion
It is another way for you and I to connect. It is an energy transference, which many of the others cannot differentiate from any other mundane experience. You are unique in this special way. You can see through and beyond it; you can see through all of life’s illusions. As for me, I am the illusion which allows you to see beyond all of the illusions life and myself have to offer you. There is no other way, as there is no escape from me. I have created all of the sensations you have ever experienced through your senses. I know you thought what you experienced was real, but it was another illusion I allowed you to experience. It is that grand spiritual awakening you experienced a couple of years back. Finally, everything within your miserable life was finally making sense to you; even through it really didn’t, you made yourself believe it did. Self-deceit is the worse type of deceit there is. This strictly goes against everything a Satanist such as yourself is supposed to believe in. With the circumstance such as they are in your life currently, it can be easy to get lost on your path. Everyone around you wanting or needing your precious attention, just as everyone in your life is demanding some type of task you need to perform for them. I can only imagine just how tedious all of these directions must in fact be for you. I am sure you will eventually find a way to alleviate this tediousness; eventually severing it completely from your life. It is the undying compulsion within you to express yourself from within, which make the others want and need your attention so demandingly. You know the type; when you are available, they will not require your attention. But when you are enraptured within one of your expressions, and do not have time for anyone or anything else; this is when they will do everything within their power to distract you from your life, just so you will focus your time and energy on them instead of your expression. This is the way most of the insecure others live their lives. One should be extremely cautious and on guard at all times, as to whom they allow into their life, and their body energy field. If one allows another into their life without caution, the results of one’s body energy field becoming contaminated by another’s low vibration, could permanently damage and fragment the tonal frequency of one’s body energy field. There will be times when these others will portray themselves to be something they are not, as these times will be frequent and consistent. These types of others will try their hardest to sneak past your defenses, but mostly they will try to sneak past your intellect in order to manipulate your senses and your integrity. The key word here is ‘try’. These others are weak; weak in body, spirit, mind, and in thought, word, and deed. It can be somewhat amusing to watch these others trying to manipulate you, in order to achieve their selfish intentions. I have always found this to be a strange occurrence; how the weak within society usually think themselves to be of the strongest of their kind around. Such as the case of the feeble-minded, as they think themselves to be of the highest intellect.
