Life will leave you behind if you don’t keep up with it. It will leave you so far behind, you might never be able to catch up to it. Yet, there is hope! You don’t need to catch up to it, if you are in fact starting a new life; completely separate from the life which left you behind. That’s all you need to turn a frown upside down. The ones you thought would care don’t, and the ones who never cared still don’t: third verse same as the first. No one needs to care, as it is not their responsibility to do so. Only you need to care about yourself, as this is the greatest gift you could ever possess. It is your sole (soul) responsibility to care for yourself, to truly understand what self-reliance means within the depths of your internal nature. You are your gift, and fuck everything and everyone else.
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Part 3
There is a lot of nonsense and bullshit contained within it. But, I know society has always been that way. I know, it is important to adapt, but how does one adapt to a world, which no longer makes sense to them?
Adaptation, is a mental construct within one’s perception of how things are, how things should be, and how things no longer are. When in actuality, one must understand how the external world (society) is 100% nonsensical bullshit! You have to create your own life, your own reality, simply because the external world will never make sense to anyone. If you adapt to a crazy nonsensical world, that in turn will make you crazy and nonsensical. Are you understanding what I am telling you?
I think so.
I’m telling you that you have to transcend society and the nonsensical bullshit contained within it, and create your own life. From this point forth, society is going to continue to change. In 5 years from now, you will not recognize the world as it is today. This is why you must find yourself internally, not externally. The New Order of life has arrived, and it may or may not contain a place for you within it. This is in actuality irrelevant, as it should be your main goal, your main focus, to create your own place within the world.
I know this, as this is why I left town, in order to isolate myself within nature’s womb. I needed to clear my thoughts, and my soul. It can be challenging at times to move forward within life, when there is a constant feeling of impending doom contained within the mind, heart, and soul. It is the most curious feeling to feel lost within life, looking for that light at the end of the tunnel.
You know, that light one will see at the end of a tunnel, is usually a train headed straight for them.
Yes, I know! I have been run over by that locomotive many times! Though, I keep moving forward, as I do not allow these defeats to keep me down.
Perhaps you are being railroaded for a specific reason.
What do you mean?
Perhaps something greater than yourself, is guiding you into a direction you would not head towards on your own, as the experiences you are currently going through, are directing you towards where you are supposed to be.
(No words, just a dead stare)
What I am telling you is: THE UNIVERSE WILL DO FOR YOU WHAT YOU CANNOT DO FOR YOURSELF.
Part 2
Why would you think I do not have the right mirror?
Well, if you are having issues seeing yourself, then perhaps you are seeing something, which may or may not exist.
What the hell does that even mean?
It means that you are seeing something within yourself, which you are not seeing in the right light, or may not be there at all. Sometimes, one’s life experiences can alter their reality; allowing one’s paradigm to completely shift into a way of thinking, which may, or in your case, may not be conducive to living a healthy life.
So, you think my life experiences have shifted my paradigm?
Absolutely! You are a completely different person than you were a year ago, let alone a month ago. Everything about you has changed to the point that I no longer recognize my friend. Do you even know who you are now?
I am still the same person I was, just a different variation of that person. Living life has the capacity to fundamentally fuck you up! Through my eyes, the way one reacts and handles their life experiences, either allows one to grow or to shrink. Consequently, one’s life experiences may actually lead them to need a shrink.
At least I know your nauseatingly sarcastic sense of humor is the same.
I understand what you are saying to me, but I need you to know that I have recognized the changes within me, in which you are referring to. I know I have changed over the past three years. Sometime I an not sure if this change is for the better or worse. I know my paradigm has shifted, as my outlook on life has completely changed. I am evolving into a new way of life, a new way of living, which I was not prepared for. I know that life is different now, but so is society and the world for that matter.
Society and the world is always going to change on you, whether you like it or not. One either needs to adapt to this change, or create a life for themselves, which is not dependent upon society and the nonsensical bullshit contained within it.
Directly into Your Eyes
I have spent the night here so many times, I should probably leave a toothbrush and some toothpaste. Maybe I should also leave some clothes to wear for the next day. The intentions change, but that feeling I get within the pit of my stomach never does. I should not be here, yet I always find myself returning back to this strange place, along with that nauseous feeling within the pit of my stomach. There was one intention, whom I had a tremendous affection for, but she could not get right with herself. You know the type; thinking about thinking, then thinking some more about thinking. What a self-depriving and tedious task, these types must live through; loving and craving every attention seeking moment within it. We really should not give these types of sheeple a hard time, as their gods have already punished them, by giving them the life they are currently living. Or, they have already punished themselves, by choosing the life they are currently living. I am sure you are wondering what or where this place is, I am referring to. Well, it is not an actual physical location, as much as it is a place hidden within one’s inner self. It is a dark place within your chest cavity. A dark place where all of your rejected intentions, permanently go to hibernate for the rest of your life. I have experienced many rejected intentions, too many to remember. I used to take these types of intentions personal, as these days I no longer take anything personal. Sometimes, it can be challenging, when there is an intention, which wants nothing to do with you. It will look directly into your eyes, and this intention will look past you, as though you do not exist. This intention wants nothing to do with you. I have been here before many times. I sometimes think it is going to be different, but it never is. I would like to know the truth hiding within one’s intentions, as I am seeking this truth hidden within mine. This is one of the reasons, as to why I live within my own atmosphere. I rarely come out of it, and I rarely allow anyone to come in to disturb me. Comfort of the heart, the mind, and the soul, are of the utmost importance. This can be especially true, when one finds comfort within their own heart. The heart is a fragile love, a love which needs to be nurtured and cared for. It cannot be abused, nor should it ever be ignored. Now, this is when the true magic happens; giving your heart to an affection of yours, and it is ignored. This is how you know the true intentions of your offered affection. Whatever the results may be, it is important to accept them, and to thoroughly move on with your life. Look at your life as a sensitivity experiment; when each intention passes, the next intention will be easier to withstand. Building up your tolerance, is the best exercise for the heart, mind, and soul. If you are living within this vibration, you will experience many intentions throughout your lifetime. It is important to keep in mind, that it is not the intention you have to pay attention to, as it is the way you react to the intentions you are presented with. In this life, one can only control the reaction to an experience, not the actual experience itself.
Recognizing the Humans
I do not recognize the humans anymore. There has been a change within their DNA, which has altered them physically, psychically, and spiritually. There exists a lack mentality within the humans nowadays. When one ventures out into this etiquette lacking society, you can actually see the looks on the other’s faces, as though they are not going to get what is rightfully theirs. Rarely do I see a smile on another’s face when out in this etiquette lacking society. I watch as the humans walk aimlessly through their lives; looking for some type of hope, with the blank expression of their life’s devastation, solemnly hanging off their face. Why not kill yourself, if you are that miserable living your life? The hurt and pain being expressed upon the other’s faces, is in fact brutal. The others do not have the capacity, nor the knowledge of how to let go. Their thoughts create their facial features, just as their thoughts create their now sandpapered body energy field. If you are a sensitive, which means you are highly sensitive to energy, and the energy others project, you may in fact find it difficult at times to be out in society. You will find yourself going out into society more in the evenings, as opposed to during the day, that is if you are not at work. You also refuse to drive your car during rush hour, as you are constantly absorbing the energetic frustration and aggravation from the other drivers on the road. You have the complete capacity to be an isolationist, as you greatly enjoy your time alone. If you do in fact have friends, they are of a select few, as you only have the capacity to befriend those with who you can maintain a deep connection with. If you are in a relationship, your partner must be completely on the same level as you; otherwise, the relationship will never work out, as your partner will lack the fundamental capacity to understand your thought process. Being a sensitive can be an isolating type of lifestyle, but this does not necessarily mean you have to live an unfulfilling isolated life. On your path through this life, you will meet others who are sensitives as well. You may or may not share a connection with one another, but that work is left between the two of you. I know you are not the type whom will utter the defaming words, “I’m bored” as neither you or I have the time or the patience with these types of others. I know you have very special interests, which no one else knows about other than you. It is good to pursue these interests, as this will probably be the most fulfillment you may encounter within this lifetime. You intuitively know you will not experience the type of fulfillment you receive through your interests, by being in any type of personal relationship. I have never experienced any type of fulfillment, within any type of personal relationship. This is my design, the way I am; not possessing the ability to conform on any level, as I am also unable to emotionally connect with those around me. I have worked through this character trait my entire life, as I fully accept this quality, which allows me to live within myself. I was born unto this world with the inner inclination of being solitary, as I have accepted this trait within its entirety. It is true: I have no friends, and two family members who somewhat care about me. This is pretty much all I need, as this is how I have lived throughout the duration of my life. I have never known anything different, as it is extraordinarily difficult for me to emotionally connect with other people, let alone being able to connect with another romantically.
Their Laughter
There is something intangible, ungraspable; something I have been searching for my entire life. I know it exists, though I do not know what it is, where to find it, or what it could possibly be. I am not entirely sure if it is a thing, a feeling, an emotion, or death for that matter. I know its existence is real, and I will attain it. I know this does not make sense to you, but for those of you who do understand exactly what I am talking about, it does make sense. Just when I think I may have found what I have been looking for, it is then presented to me that it is not. This is when I can hear the gods laughing at me again, yet I never allow their laughter to hinder my intent or movement forward. Nothing will hinder my search for this missing substance within my life, which I know exists.
G.G. Kalfas 