It is only when one has awakened from their conscious slumber, when they will intuitively come to understand how they have no other choice in life, other than to find themselves within their heart’s desire. When one awakens to who and what they are within themselves, a great responsibility is placed upon them. This is the internal desire, responsibility, and obligation for one to ascend to their higher purpose within this life. For those who are still asleep, and have not awakened; they will remain unaware of this great responsibility living within themselves. For some of the others, they will transition from this realm to the next, without ever knowing this fantastic responsibility within themselves. As long as one remains comfortable within their life, this comfort will maintain their internal ignorance about themselves; moreover, this comfort will inevitably deem self-awareness and self-reliance unnecessary. There are many of the others within this realm, who are completely unaware of the existence of their eternal home. One cannot inform another is has not awakened to themselves; moreover, the security which exists within mind numbing ignorance, is a luxury you and I will never know or experience. The true, purest fundamental essence of one’s heart’s desire and eternal home, is the understanding of the Infernal Consciousness of creation, which exists deep within it. After one awakens to the external world of illusions, and to the fundamental truth within themselves; a numbing effect will shroud one’s body energy field. This numbing effect is a defense mechanism, a protective shield of sorts; protecting the newly awakened one from the toxic and malignant energies, tonalities, and frequencies within the external realm. Once an awakened one has fortified themselves within their body energy field, the numbing effect will dissipate rather quickly; allowing one to instinctively protect themselves against the toxic and malignant external realm. There are many different factors involved, when protecting one’s self from life’s atrocities, which freely roam haphazardly within the external world. When it concerns finding one’s eternal home and heart’s desire, the only place one ever needs to explore is within themselves. I cannot give you specific instructions, as everyone’s eternal home and heart’s desire, is completely different and unique. The only information I can give to you, is the knowing of its existence within yourself. There are so many things which we seek out within the external world. Yet, what we seek within the external, is in actuality contained within ourselves. There are others within this realm, who never quite figure this out. It took me many decades to realize this truth; consequently, it took me the same amount of time to come to the realization and understanding that what I experienced within the external world, was an exact representation of my thoughts, how I felt about myself, and my overall paradigm within my heart. Once I awakened to this infernal truth, my entire life transformed right before my eyes.
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Back in 2018
This was the first book I published back in 2018. The title of the book, You Cannot Put a Picture in My Frame of Mind, comes from lyrics to a song I had written back in 1999. In the late 90’s to early 2000’s, I was lead guitarist for a death metal band here in Houston, Texas. Nothing ever became of the band, because I quit when I decided to check myself into a drug and alcohol rehabilitation center. This book is a culmination of song lyrics, daily journal entries, and dream journal entries, which I had written pre and post sobriety. I sobered up to save my life, yet throughout the years, I sometimes question if it was all worth it. Sometimes it is yes; sometimes it is not yes. It’s interesting how life can take you to places, which you never thought you would experience. The highs and lows seem to balance themselves out: flatlining. I have no words of wisdom, or “deep” philosophical insights, which no one truly gets. I have nothing for you today, except for you to enjoy your life. If you do not experience life, it might turn on you like a rabid dog, and experience you.
Winter’s Breath
Contained within the blowing breeze, the crisp chill of winter’s breath, breathing through the trees, feeling the Earth’s bodily dirt sift itself through my fingers; this is my eternal home. Although, I am well aware that one day, I will not be standing upon the Earth, as I will find myself lying within its womb. Back from which I came. From life to death, from death to life; another life lived, another death relived. I am still the same from one life to the next. Nothing can change my nature, as I possess the same consciousness from one life to the next. Only the circumstances change, as the air I breathe and my paradigms remain the same. There is nothing new contained within the Sun of a lost and dying age. There is nothing new contained within my thoughts of an undying anger and rage. The confusion is not real, as it is a mechanism designed to sterilize the fertilized womb. This is where regret, chastity, and morality go to slumber in the womb of their tomb. The blowing breeze still calls upon me. I can feel its chilling calls reverberate within my chest cavity. It is the mother’s voice, calling her children home. It is that specific nurturing feeling you know exists within your mind, but have yet to experience it within your heart. Within each incarnation, I search throughout the life I am currently inhabiting, in order to fill this illusive nurturing within my heart. I specifically reincarnate myself and travel from rebirth to rebirth, just to fill the voided hole, which lives deep within my blackened heart. After all of my travels through my incarnations, I am just now beginning to learn how to live with this void within my heart. It is not as bad as you might think it to be, as it has been Æons, since I have not felt pain within my heart. I have now fully come to the understanding in which the void I felt within my heart, no longer requires to be filled from any type of external nurturing. I always thought I needed some type of external fulfilment, but now I have come to the complete understanding, in which I am my own fulfilment, as I require nothing from outside of myself. Within each incarnation into this physical material realm, I am able to forge deeper into my consciousness; communing deeper into my consciousness’s internal nature.
An Undying Truth
It can seem daunting at times; standing in front of your mirror, and seeing yourself for who and what you truly are. There are many of the others, who lack the capacity or the ability to take on such an undertaking. You never have been like the others; knowing exactly who and how you are, as you possess the truth of sight and understanding; knowing exactly who and what you are within the core of your inner nature. When you stand in front of your mirror, and glimpse into the individual standing before you; there is an undying truth which is wholeheartedly staring right back at you. As a grown man standing before your mirror, you can see the little boy you once were; standing and staring right back at you. The external world changed, molded, and eventually tortured the dreams, which were once contained within you. These dreams are still contained within your heart, yet they have seemed to be tucked away for safe keeping, and to remain protected from the vulturous-handed external world. Now is the time to allow these dreams to be freed from within; allowing them to live and breathe on their own. Your inner dreams possess their own consciousness, as they desire nothing more than to be known; living and breathing their own way of life within the manifestations of the external realm. By trying to keep these dreams hidden away from the surface world, they are slowly being suffocated and denied life. This is not the purpose of dreams, as they were created and designed to be free and to live on their own. You have cultivated and nurtured them to the point of maturity, now you must release them upon the external realm, just as you must release yourself upon the external realm.
Consciousness Within Itself
Life is about mastering the internal and external evolutions within one’s lifecycle. One may experience a cycle over and over again, until the cycle itself is mastered by one’s consciousness. I have recognized this patter within the cycles of my life, as well as the cycles within the life of others. There is much to be said, and even more to be learned from living within an unrelenting repetitive lifecycle. There is a closure, an understanding of peace within one’s heart, when a lifecycle comes to a much needed and necessary conclusion. The death of a lifecycle is an ascending movement upward and forward within the depths of one’s internal and external very own understanding of consciousness and life itself. The mixtures of energies and frequencies within one’s lifecycle, solely exist as an exercise of the internal and external will, of one’s understanding of consciousness, and one’s heart’s desire. The kinetic desires and substances contained within the vibrations and movements within the surrounding energies and frequencies within one’s internal and external paradigms, become enhanced and useable, when harnessed by focus and volition of one’s conscious and subconscious minds. Energies and frequencies, along with internal and external vibrations, are moldable when one becomes master of their free will. The underlying understanding of one’s free will, is the innate ability of possessing, in full capacity, the absolute choice and power of focusing one’s mind; therefore, the psychic power contained within their body energy field, upon the living and breathing internal and external realms they mentally, physically, spiritually, and psychically inhabit. The external projection of one’s internal volition upon these realms, can and will create dimensions and doorways within the Æther’s consciousness; allowing interdimensional doorways, pathways, frequencies, and energies to be experienced within this material realm. In its truest essence; one’s volition and knowing, is the fundamental core foundation of any and all forms of lower and higher magick. Without volition and knowing, belief in any type of inner and outer workings, will simply not exist; moreover, these workings will not contain the power needed in order for them to manifest within this, or any other realm. The core foundation of any and all forms of internal or external workings is contained within one’s heart’s desire. Consciousness within itself, is the rawest form of lower and higher magick contained within the Æther. It is important for the individual practitioner to create their own ways, means, and methods, along with their own rituals and incantations, when invoking any type of internal and/or external consciousness. Before any type of consciousness is invoked, one must recognize the vibrational frequency contained within their heart at that specific moment. When one is in alignment with their volition, the inner yearnings of their heart’s desire, and the consciousness they wish to invoke; they will find success within any type of internal or external workings they so choose to induce upon the internal and external realms.
The Concept of Being a Human Being
Completion in its self, is simply the culmination of thoroughly understanding specific experiences, which pertain to extremely specific circumstances, contained within the metamorphosis and transition of one’s lifecycle. Upon reaching this understanding of completion, you will energetically feel yourself breaking free from the chrysalis, which has been tirelessly keeping you safely protected during the process of your transitional metamorphosis. When you really think about it; today is the only day you will ever live. Do you truly remember every little single detail of what you experienced yesterday, or even a week ago, let alone a month ago? I doubt it very much. Can you even remember the details you lived through this very morning; what you said, what you did, or even the random thoughts which were sporadically occurring within your fragmented mind? I highly doubt it. Now is truly the only time you possess to experience life with. I find it curious and interesting, how one’s heart truly desires to live within the now, and to only experience the now. There is no escaping the now, when one’s heart’s desire shows itself to be present and focused. It is as though the desire, the inner yearnings of screams from within one’s self, will consume one’s will and understanding of life; compelling one to break free from their internal and external bondage, in order to experience life in all of its rawness and grit. This is the hidden meaning, which is hidden underneath the concept of being a human being. Within our cowardly new world, far too many of the others, willingly choose to live vicariously through their hand-held devices. Little do they know, each time this atrocity occurs, they are in actually handing over a tiny piece of their soul to their hand-held master’s commands. The vast majority of the others do not want to be responsible for themselves, let alone be responsible for their own soul. Why would handing over a piece of their soul each time they shove their nose into their hand-held device bother them? They want to be controlled, they need and desire to be told by their masters what is best for them. This type of behavior and obedient attitude, is the quickest way to find death within one’s heart’s desire. The human species has devolved away from its internal connection with itself and its higher purpose for being alive within its own consciousness. I am not entirely sure the human species will ever find its way back; knowing the raw essence of what truly exists from within. There exists the heavy essence of a “lack mentality” within the human species, which has absolutely no purpose for being there. This lack mentality, has been carefully place within the human’s thought process, as this way of thinking will keep them constantly looking for more, consuming more, and needing more of the things they do not need, but cannot live without. One’s heart’s desire, does not exist within a lack mentality, a lack consciousness, as this is a false placement within one’s life. Consciousness exists only to enjoy the experience of expressing itself, not to be bombarded by the external world’s unnecessarily created energies and frequencies. One cannot live in a world of fear, pain, and torment; thinking they will be able to fulfill the inner yearnings of their heart’s desire. Weight and heaviness cannot exist within one’s heart, as this will in actuality, weight one’s life purpose down. The weight and heaviness of one’s thoughts and feelings, will eventually prolong one’s internal pain to the point of nonaction. One’s heart will not be able to express itself, which will eventually create a blockage from within, as this will eventually affect every aspect of one’s life. One must clear the blockage from their heart, which will eventually clear the blockage from within their life.
G.G. Kalfas 