The mind can sometimes be the quicksand of the soul; pulling one down into more endless realms of thought, which desire nothing more than to suffocate you and your soul in their entirety.
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Directly into Your Eyes
I have spent the night here so many times, I should probably leave a toothbrush and some toothpaste. Maybe I should also leave some clothes to wear for the next day. The intentions change, but that feeling I get within the pit of my stomach never does. I should not be here, yet I always find myself returning back to this strange place, along with that nauseous feeling within the pit of my stomach. There was one intention, whom I had a tremendous affection for, but she could not get right with herself. You know the type; thinking about thinking, then thinking some more about thinking. What a self-depriving and tedious task, these types must live through; loving and craving every attention seeking moment within it. We really should not give these types of sheeple a hard time, as their gods have already punished them, by giving them the life they are currently living. Or, they have already punished themselves, by choosing the life they are currently living. I am sure you are wondering what or where this place is, I am referring to. Well, it is not an actual physical location, as much as it is a place hidden within one’s inner self. It is a dark place within your chest cavity. A dark place where all of your rejected intentions, permanently go to hibernate for the rest of your life. I have experienced many rejected intentions, too many to remember. I used to take these types of intentions personal, as these days I no longer take anything personal. Sometimes, it can be challenging, when there is an intention, which wants nothing to do with you. It will look directly into your eyes, and this intention will look past you, as though you do not exist. This intention wants nothing to do with you. I have been here before many times. I sometimes think it is going to be different, but it never is. I would like to know the truth hiding within one’s intentions, as I am seeking this truth hidden within mine. This is one of the reasons, as to why I live within my own atmosphere. I rarely come out of it, and I rarely allow anyone to come in to disturb me. Comfort of the heart, the mind, and the soul, are of the utmost importance. This can be especially true, when one finds comfort within their own heart. The heart is a fragile love, a love which needs to be nurtured and cared for. It cannot be abused, nor should it ever be ignored. Now, this is when the true magic happens; giving your heart to an affection of yours, and it is ignored. This is how you know the true intentions of your offered affection. Whatever the results may be, it is important to accept them, and to thoroughly move on with your life. Look at your life as a sensitivity experiment; when each intention passes, the next intention will be easier to withstand. Building up your tolerance, is the best exercise for the heart, mind, and soul. If you are living within this vibration, you will experience many intentions throughout your lifetime. It is important to keep in mind, that it is not the intention you have to pay attention to, as it is the way you react to the intentions you are presented with. In this life, one can only control the reaction to an experience, not the actual experience itself.
Recognizing the Humans
I do not recognize the humans anymore. There has been a change within their DNA, which has altered them physically, psychically, and spiritually. There exists a lack mentality within the humans nowadays. When one ventures out into this etiquette lacking society, you can actually see the looks on the other’s faces, as though they are not going to get what is rightfully theirs. Rarely do I see a smile on another’s face when out in this etiquette lacking society. I watch as the humans walk aimlessly through their lives; looking for some type of hope, with the blank expression of their life’s devastation, solemnly hanging off their face. Why not kill yourself, if you are that miserable living your life? The hurt and pain being expressed upon the other’s faces, is in fact brutal. The others do not have the capacity, nor the knowledge of how to let go. Their thoughts create their facial features, just as their thoughts create their now sandpapered body energy field. If you are a sensitive, which means you are highly sensitive to energy, and the energy others project, you may in fact find it difficult at times to be out in society. You will find yourself going out into society more in the evenings, as opposed to during the day, that is if you are not at work. You also refuse to drive your car during rush hour, as you are constantly absorbing the energetic frustration and aggravation from the other drivers on the road. You have the complete capacity to be an isolationist, as you greatly enjoy your time alone. If you do in fact have friends, they are of a select few, as you only have the capacity to befriend those with who you can maintain a deep connection with. If you are in a relationship, your partner must be completely on the same level as you; otherwise, the relationship will never work out, as your partner will lack the fundamental capacity to understand your thought process. Being a sensitive can be an isolating type of lifestyle, but this does not necessarily mean you have to live an unfulfilling isolated life. On your path through this life, you will meet others who are sensitives as well. You may or may not share a connection with one another, but that work is left between the two of you. I know you are not the type whom will utter the defaming words, “I’m bored” as neither you or I have the time or the patience with these types of others. I know you have very special interests, which no one else knows about other than you. It is good to pursue these interests, as this will probably be the most fulfillment you may encounter within this lifetime. You intuitively know you will not experience the type of fulfillment you receive through your interests, by being in any type of personal relationship. I have never experienced any type of fulfillment, within any type of personal relationship. This is my design, the way I am; not possessing the ability to conform on any level, as I am also unable to emotionally connect with those around me. I have worked through this character trait my entire life, as I fully accept this quality, which allows me to live within myself. I was born unto this world with the inner inclination of being solitary, as I have accepted this trait within its entirety. It is true: I have no friends, and two family members who somewhat care about me. This is pretty much all I need, as this is how I have lived throughout the duration of my life. I have never known anything different, as it is extraordinarily difficult for me to emotionally connect with other people, let alone being able to connect with another romantically.
The Concept of Being a Human Being
Completion in its self, is simply the culmination of thoroughly understanding specific experiences, which pertain to extremely specific circumstances, contained within the metamorphosis and transition of one’s lifecycle. Upon reaching this understanding of completion, you will energetically feel yourself breaking free from the chrysalis, which has been tirelessly keeping you safely protected during the process of your transitional metamorphosis. When you really think about it; today is the only day you will ever live. Do you truly remember every little single detail of what you experienced yesterday, or even a week ago, let alone a month ago? I doubt it very much. Can you even remember the details you lived through this very morning; what you said, what you did, or even the random thoughts which were sporadically occurring within your fragmented mind? I highly doubt it. Now is truly the only time you possess to experience life with. I find it curious and interesting, how one’s heart truly desires to live within the now, and to only experience the now. There is no escaping the now, when one’s heart’s desire shows itself to be present and focused. It is as though the desire, the inner yearnings of screams from within one’s self, will consume one’s will and understanding of life; compelling one to break free from their internal and external bondage, in order to experience life in all of its rawness and grit. This is the hidden meaning, which is hidden underneath the concept of being a human being. Within our cowardly new world, far too many of the others, willingly choose to live vicariously through their hand-held devices. Little do they know, each time this atrocity occurs, they are in actually handing over a tiny piece of their soul to their hand-held master’s commands. The vast majority of the others do not want to be responsible for themselves, let alone be responsible for their own soul. Why would handing over a piece of their soul each time they shove their nose into their hand-held device bother them? They want to be controlled, they need and desire to be told by their masters what is best for them. This type of behavior and obedient attitude, is the quickest way to find death within one’s heart’s desire. The human species has devolved away from its internal connection with itself and its higher purpose for being alive within its own consciousness. I am not entirely sure the human species will ever find its way back; knowing the raw essence of what truly exists from within. There exists the heavy essence of a “lack mentality” within the human species, which has absolutely no purpose for being there. This lack mentality, has been carefully place within the human’s thought process, as this way of thinking will keep them constantly looking for more, consuming more, and needing more of the things they do not need, but cannot live without. One’s heart’s desire, does not exist within a lack mentality, a lack consciousness, as this is a false placement within one’s life. Consciousness exists only to enjoy the experience of expressing itself, not to be bombarded by the external world’s unnecessarily created energies and frequencies. One cannot live in a world of fear, pain, and torment; thinking they will be able to fulfill the inner yearnings of their heart’s desire. Weight and heaviness cannot exist within one’s heart, as this will in actuality, weight one’s life purpose down. The weight and heaviness of one’s thoughts and feelings, will eventually prolong one’s internal pain to the point of nonaction. One’s heart will not be able to express itself, which will eventually create a blockage from within, as this will eventually affect every aspect of one’s life. One must clear the blockage from their heart, which will eventually clear the blockage from within their life.
Self-Reliance
Henry Rollins once said, “…all you have is yourself and your mind…” Over the course of my lifetime, I have come to understand just how true that statement is. Self-reliance within itself, is truly the only tangible grasp one can feel within their lives, as one is holding on to their nonconformist ideologies. In case you were wondering, I have never been able to depend on anyone within this lifetime; let alone trust anyone for that matter. All you can trust is one’s nature, and how they will live their life in accordance to their nature. Resourcefulness, nonconformity, volition, and self-reliance are the traits of an individual, who will only know success within their lifetime. Compliance = Death. Not necessarily a physical death, but the death of your consciousness. Remember that.
Deliberation of Persistence
Another morning. Eyes burning. In shock of what they are witnessing. Another morning. Within another lifetime. The differences are repeating themselves. A transition within a self-limiting existence. No threshold. Only a stranglehold of the consciousness. Back breaking endeavor. Split spine. The soul’s wasted time. A deliberation of persistence. Another aggression on repeat. Repeating itself. There is a distinction within the hue. Neither you nor I, knew it at the time. There is no such control, when it comes to the unknowable; other than the type of control one will allow to be bestowed upon them. Do you really think there is another type of control? No, there exists no such thing. It was all a scam. Life. Liberty. The pursuit of nothingness. I already thought you knew all of this by now, or at least you began to figure this out. I guess not.
G.G. Kalfas 