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Part 2

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Why would you think I do not have the right mirror?

Well, if you are having issues seeing yourself, then perhaps you are seeing something, which may or may not exist.

What the hell does that even mean?

It means that you are seeing something within yourself, which you are not seeing in the right light, or may not be there at all. Sometimes, one’s life experiences can alter their reality; allowing one’s paradigm to completely shift into a way of thinking, which may, or in your case, may not be conducive to living a healthy life.

So, you think my life experiences have shifted my paradigm?

Absolutely! You are a completely different person than you were a year ago, let alone a month ago. Everything about you has changed to the point that I no longer recognize my friend. Do you even know who you are now?

I am still the same person I was, just a different variation of that person. Living life has the capacity to fundamentally fuck you up! Through my eyes, the way one reacts and handles their life experiences, either allows one to grow or to shrink. Consequently, one’s life experiences may actually lead them to need a shrink.

At least I know your nauseatingly sarcastic sense of humor is the same.

I understand what you are saying to me, but I need you to know that I have recognized the changes within me, in which you are referring to. I know I have changed over the past three years. Sometime I an not sure if this change is for the better or worse. I know my paradigm has shifted, as my outlook on life has completely changed. I am evolving into a new way of life, a new way of living, which I was not prepared for. I know that life is different now, but so is society and the world for that matter.

Society and the world is always going to change on you, whether you like it or not. One either needs to adapt to this change, or create a life for themselves, which is not dependent upon society and the nonsensical bullshit contained within it.

Recognizing the Humans

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I do not recognize the humans anymore. There has been a change within their DNA, which has altered them physically, psychically, and spiritually. There exists a lack mentality within the humans nowadays. When one ventures out into this etiquette lacking society, you can actually see the looks on the other’s faces, as though they are not going to get what is rightfully theirs. Rarely do I see a smile on another’s face when out in this etiquette lacking society. I watch as the humans walk aimlessly through their lives; looking for some type of hope, with the blank expression of their life’s devastation, solemnly hanging off their face. Why not kill yourself, if you are that miserable living your life? The hurt and pain being expressed upon the other’s faces, is in fact brutal. The others do not have the capacity, nor the knowledge of how to let go. Their thoughts create their facial features, just as their thoughts create their now sandpapered body energy field. If you are a sensitive, which means you are highly sensitive to energy, and the energy others project, you may in fact find it difficult at times to be out in society. You will find yourself going out into society more in the evenings, as opposed to during the day, that is if you are not at work. You also refuse to drive your car during rush hour, as you are constantly absorbing the energetic frustration and aggravation from the other drivers on the road. You have the complete capacity to be an isolationist, as you greatly enjoy your time alone. If you do in fact have friends, they are of a select few, as you only have the capacity to befriend those with who you can maintain a deep connection with. If you are in a relationship, your partner must be completely on the same level as you; otherwise, the relationship will never work out, as your partner will lack the fundamental capacity to understand your thought process. Being a sensitive can be an isolating type of lifestyle, but this does not necessarily mean you have to live an unfulfilling isolated life. On your path through this life, you will meet others who are sensitives as well. You may or may not share a connection with one another, but that work is left between the two of you. I know you are not the type whom will utter the defaming words, “I’m bored” as neither you or I have the time or the patience with these types of others. I know you have very special interests, which no one else knows about other than you. It is good to pursue these interests, as this will probably be the most fulfillment you may encounter within this lifetime. You intuitively know you will not experience the type of fulfillment you receive through your interests, by being in any type of personal relationship. I have never experienced any type of fulfillment, within any type of personal relationship. This is my design, the way I am; not possessing the ability to conform on any level, as I am also unable to emotionally connect with those around me. I have worked through this character trait my entire life, as I fully accept this quality, which allows me to live within myself. I was born unto this world with the inner inclination of being solitary, as I have accepted this trait within its entirety. It is true: I have no friends, and two family members who somewhat care about me. This is pretty much all I need, as this is how I have lived throughout the duration of my life. I have never known anything different, as it is extraordinarily difficult for me to emotionally connect with other people, let alone being able to connect with another romantically.

This Sudden Compulsion

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I will sit alone sometimes with the lights turned off; solitarily thinking about my life in the darkness. I will suddenly have a compulsion from within. This sudden compulsion makes me stand upright; wanting to throw myself out into the world. This is when I remember and acknowledge to myself; I have nowhere to go. When I talk to, or approach people is public, a look of dread and fear befalls upon their face; thinking I am death, and I have come to take them away with me. The fear these people display is certainly uncalled for. I am not there to kill them where they stand, as I will more than likely wait until there is no one else around; making sure there are no eye witnesses. Not really. I am actually quite harmless most of the time. But to these people, I do not seem to be. They do not know I am talking to them for some sort of human contact. This contact is not due to loneliness, or attention seeking, on the contrary; I do not need people in my life, and I have never experienced loneliness. I approach these people as a form of practice. By doing so, I do not get rusty when I do need to talk to someone when it is necessary. When I am standing there with the lights off, and this compulsion is running hurriedly through me; I think about going out and rummaging through this disgusting dying world. Once I run through all of my previous experiences of going out into the world; I usually arrive at the same conclusion I have always arrived at: it is all a waste of my precious time. Once I remember my previous outings into society, this is when I sit back down. I will sit there quietly; closing my eyes, thinking and fantasizing about a world which does not reject me, in the way I have come to reject it.

Recognizing the Humans

ggkalfas

I do not recognize the humans anymore. There has been a change within their DNA, which has altered them physically, psychically, and spiritually. There exists a lack mentality within the humans nowadays. When one ventures out into this etiquette lacking society, you can actually see the looks on the others faces, as though they are not going to get what is rightfully theirs. Rarely do I see a smile on another’s face when out in this etiquette lacking society. I watch as the humans walk aimlessly through their lives; looking for some type of hope, with the blank expression of their life’s devastation, solemnly hanging off their face. Why not kill yourself, if you are that miserable living your life? The hurt and pain being expressed upon the others faces, is in fact brutal. The others do not have the capacity, nor the knowledge of how to let go. Their thoughts create their facial features, just as their thoughts create their now abrasive body energy field. If you are a sensitive, which means you are highly sensitive to energy, and the energy others project, you may in fact find it difficult at times to be out in society. You will find yourself going out into society more in the evenings, as opposed to during the day, that is if you are not at work. You also refuse to drive your car during rush hour, as you are constantly absorbing the energetic frustration and aggravation from the other drivers on the road. You have the complete capacity to be an isolationist, as you greatly enjoying your time alone. If you do in fact have friends, they are of a select few, as you only have the capacity to befriend those with whom you can maintain a deep connection with. If you are in a relationship, your partner must be completely on the same level as you are; otherwise, the relationship will never work out, as your partner will lack the fundamental capacity to understand you. Being a sensitive can be an isolating type of lifestyle, but this does not necessarily mean you have to live an unfulfilling isolated life. On your path through this life, you will meet others who are sensitives as well. You may or may not share a connection with one another, but that work is left between the two of you. I know you are not the type whom will utter the defaming words, “I’m bored” as neither you or I have the time or the patience with these types of others. I know you have very special interests, which no one else knows about other than you. It is good to pursue these interests, as this will probably be the most fulfillment you may encounter within this lifetime. You intuitively know you will not experience the type of fulfillment you receive through your interests, by being in any type of personal relationship. I have never experienced any type of fulfillment, within any type of personal relationship. This is my design, the way I am; not possessing the ability to conform on any level, as I am also unable to emotionally connect with those around me. I have worked through this character trait my entire life, as I fully accept this quality, which allows me to live within myself. I was born unto this world with the inner inclination of being solitary, as I have accepted this trait within its entirety. It is true: I have no friends, and two family members who somewhat care about me. This is pretty much all I need, as this is how I have lived throughout the duration of my life. I have never known anything different, as it is extraordinarily difficult for me to emotionally connect with other people, let alone being able to connect with another romantically.

Consciousness is the Only Defense

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This is the base level of my foundation; the raw slab of consciousness, in which I have built my life upon from the ground up. My isolation chamber is my home. This is where I go to heal myself, and to be free from the bondage of the external world. Never place your life within another’s hands, as disappointment will find you every time. Live your life free from the others, as they are not here to bring peace into your life. The others will only bring their dogmatic views, opinions, and neuroses into your life; strangling the breath within you at any and every chance they can get. The catacombs within one’s mind, is the anchor of one’s inner thoughts. Within these catacombs, the true individual can heal themselves within their chrysalis, and move forward from any transformation they might be currently undergoing. This is how you and I heal ourselves: from within. The illusive external world will have you believing in lies and fear, as though these are real concepts. Nothing could be further from the absolute truth within one’s self. Within our minds; this is where our reality is created; not by a story we are told from another’s lying lips. Consciousness is the only defense the true individual has to protect their inner essence against the cesspool of neuroses within the illusive external world. It is proper to understand how the others, sheeple, and laborers know absolutely nothing about individuality, not do they know what true independence really is. For the true individual to spend extended periods of time within the illusive external world, without healing themselves within the catacombs of their inner essence; will bring about an increasingly toxic frequency within the true individual’s body energy field. This is why it is so important to never depend upon another person, nor the external world to heal one’s self from within. The majority of the sloth-like, uninitiated others, will most certainly resort to alcohol, drugs, food, porn, or other external vices, as a basic sheeple-response, half-assed attempt to heal some part of themselves from within. The majority of the others follow this route, as it is the easiest and quickest diluting method to numb any type of pain from within. But with these weak-willed and weak-minded others, they usually fail to recognize the difference between feeling numb, and healing one’s self from within. This is a commonality the others usually have in common, as most of the commoners fail to recognize most things in life.

The Ripping Departure

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It is within times such as these, when everyone around you will start to doubt your abilities, motivations, intentions, and just doubt you as a whole. There will be no support from anyone around you, and if there is, they will throw all of your failures and liabilities straight in your face. Afterwards, they will claim they didn’t mean to do it, but you know they knew exactly what they were doing. They think they know what is best for you, yet they do not know what is best for themselves. The world will always close in on you. This is why it is important to keep you distance from the others, and the external world around you. No one will ever have your best interests at hand, as you must always travel throughout the external societal world with yours clenched; ready to strike anyone down at any given moment. One must maintain extreme prejudice and protection within their body energy field, when it concerns the external world. When does survival not concern the external world? I have not lived a day within this lifetime, when I was not under attack by some type of external force or circumstance. These externals can be somewhat impulsive at times; coming for you, your life, but mostly for your very soul. The sights projected from within their beady little eyes, their perception sees you as being indebted to them. This is their perception, the insecure mental state they constantly and thoroughly live within. You may feel stuck with them at time, as these types of people will constantly keep showing up on your life’s path. They are all distractions, nothing more. Do not allow these feeble-minded sheeple to distract you from anything while you make your way down your life’s path. It may feel at times that the wings to fly away from your life’s troubles and problems have been ripped straight from your back; leaving you defenseless and motionless. You may in fact be left feeling mentally, emotionally, or even physically paralyzed from the ripping departure of what you may feel is a defense mechanism of the ability to escape any situation or circumstance you may want and/or need to flee. There is never a need to escape, as you possess the inner strength within your body energy field, to handle any type of situation which may be presented before you. You never needed wings to fly, all you ever needed to change your circumstances is contained within you. It is your mind.