It can seem daunting at times; standing in front of your mirror, and seeing yourself for who and what you truly are. There are many of the others, who lack the capacity or the ability to take on such an undertaking. You never have been like the others; knowing exactly who and how you are, as you possess the truth of sight and understanding; knowing exactly who and what you are within the core of your inner nature. When you stand in front of your mirror, and glimpse into the individual standing before you; there is an undying truth which is wholeheartedly staring right back at you. As a grown man standing before your mirror, you can see the little boy you once were; standing and staring right back at you. The external world changed, molded, and eventually tortured the dreams, which were once contained within you. These dreams are still contained within your heart, yet they have seemed to be tucked away for safe keeping, and to remain protected from the vulturous-handed external world. Now is the time to allow these dreams to be freed from within; allowing them to live and breathe on their own. Your inner dreams possess their own consciousness, as they desire nothing more than to be known; living and breathing their own way of life within the manifestations of the external realm. By trying to keep these dreams hidden away from the surface world, they are slowly being suffocated and denied life. This is not the purpose of dreams, as they were created and designed to be free and to live on their own. You have cultivated and nurtured them to the point of maturity, now you must release them upon the external realm, just as you must release yourself upon the external realm.
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Consciousness Within Itself
Life is about mastering the internal and external evolutions within one’s lifecycle. One may experience a cycle over and over again, until the cycle itself is mastered by one’s consciousness. I have recognized this patter within the cycles of my life, as well as the cycles within the life of others. There is much to be said, and even more to be learned from living within an unrelenting repetitive lifecycle. There is a closure, an understanding of peace within one’s heart, when a lifecycle comes to a much needed and necessary conclusion. The death of a lifecycle is an ascending movement upward and forward within the depths of one’s internal and external very own understanding of consciousness and life itself. The mixtures of energies and frequencies within one’s lifecycle, solely exist as an exercise of the internal and external will, of one’s understanding of consciousness, and one’s heart’s desire. The kinetic desires and substances contained within the vibrations and movements within the surrounding energies and frequencies within one’s internal and external paradigms, become enhanced and useable, when harnessed by focus and volition of one’s conscious and subconscious minds. Energies and frequencies, along with internal and external vibrations, are moldable when one becomes master of their free will. The underlying understanding of one’s free will, is the innate ability of possessing, in full capacity, the absolute choice and power of focusing one’s mind; therefore, the psychic power contained within their body energy field, upon the living and breathing internal and external realms they mentally, physically, spiritually, and psychically inhabit. The external projection of one’s internal volition upon these realms, can and will create dimensions and doorways within the Æther’s consciousness; allowing interdimensional doorways, pathways, frequencies, and energies to be experienced within this material realm. In its truest essence; one’s volition and knowing, is the fundamental core foundation of any and all forms of lower and higher magick. Without volition and knowing, belief in any type of inner and outer workings, will simply not exist; moreover, these workings will not contain the power needed in order for them to manifest within this, or any other realm. The core foundation of any and all forms of internal or external workings is contained within one’s heart’s desire. Consciousness within itself, is the rawest form of lower and higher magick contained within the Æther. It is important for the individual practitioner to create their own ways, means, and methods, along with their own rituals and incantations, when invoking any type of internal and/or external consciousness. Before any type of consciousness is invoked, one must recognize the vibrational frequency contained within their heart at that specific moment. When one is in alignment with their volition, the inner yearnings of their heart’s desire, and the consciousness they wish to invoke; they will find success within any type of internal or external workings they so choose to induce upon the internal and external realms.
The Concept of Being a Human Being
Completion in its self, is simply the culmination of thoroughly understanding specific experiences, which pertain to extremely specific circumstances, contained within the metamorphosis and transition of one’s lifecycle. Upon reaching this understanding of completion, you will energetically feel yourself breaking free from the chrysalis, which has been tirelessly keeping you safely protected during the process of your transitional metamorphosis. When you really think about it; today is the only day you will ever live. Do you truly remember every little single detail of what you experienced yesterday, or even a week ago, let alone a month ago? I doubt it very much. Can you even remember the details you lived through this very morning; what you said, what you did, or even the random thoughts which were sporadically occurring within your fragmented mind? I highly doubt it. Now is truly the only time you possess to experience life with. I find it curious and interesting, how one’s heart truly desires to live within the now, and to only experience the now. There is no escaping the now, when one’s heart’s desire shows itself to be present and focused. It is as though the desire, the inner yearnings of screams from within one’s self, will consume one’s will and understanding of life; compelling one to break free from their internal and external bondage, in order to experience life in all of its rawness and grit. This is the hidden meaning, which is hidden underneath the concept of being a human being. Within our cowardly new world, far too many of the others, willingly choose to live vicariously through their hand-held devices. Little do they know, each time this atrocity occurs, they are in actually handing over a tiny piece of their soul to their hand-held master’s commands. The vast majority of the others do not want to be responsible for themselves, let alone be responsible for their own soul. Why would handing over a piece of their soul each time they shove their nose into their hand-held device bother them? They want to be controlled, they need and desire to be told by their masters what is best for them. This type of behavior and obedient attitude, is the quickest way to find death within one’s heart’s desire. The human species has devolved away from its internal connection with itself and its higher purpose for being alive within its own consciousness. I am not entirely sure the human species will ever find its way back; knowing the raw essence of what truly exists from within. There exists the heavy essence of a “lack mentality” within the human species, which has absolutely no purpose for being there. This lack mentality, has been carefully place within the human’s thought process, as this way of thinking will keep them constantly looking for more, consuming more, and needing more of the things they do not need, but cannot live without. One’s heart’s desire, does not exist within a lack mentality, a lack consciousness, as this is a false placement within one’s life. Consciousness exists only to enjoy the experience of expressing itself, not to be bombarded by the external world’s unnecessarily created energies and frequencies. One cannot live in a world of fear, pain, and torment; thinking they will be able to fulfill the inner yearnings of their heart’s desire. Weight and heaviness cannot exist within one’s heart, as this will in actuality, weight one’s life purpose down. The weight and heaviness of one’s thoughts and feelings, will eventually prolong one’s internal pain to the point of nonaction. One’s heart will not be able to express itself, which will eventually create a blockage from within, as this will eventually affect every aspect of one’s life. One must clear the blockage from their heart, which will eventually clear the blockage from within their life.
Recognizing the Humans
I do not recognize the humans anymore. There has been a change within their DNA, which has altered them physically, psychically, and spiritually. There exists a lack mentality within the humans nowadays. When one ventures out into this etiquette lacking society, you can actually see the looks on the others faces, as though they are not going to get what is rightfully theirs. Rarely do I see a smile on another’s face when out in this etiquette lacking society. I watch as the humans walk aimlessly through their lives; looking for some type of hope, with the blank expression of their life’s devastation, solemnly hanging off their face. Why not kill yourself, if you are that miserable living your life? The hurt and pain being expressed upon the others faces, is in fact brutal. The others do not have the capacity, nor the knowledge of how to let go. Their thoughts create their facial features, just as their thoughts create their now abrasive body energy field. If you are a sensitive, which means you are highly sensitive to energy, and the energy others project, you may in fact find it difficult at times to be out in society. You will find yourself going out into society more in the evenings, as opposed to during the day, that is if you are not at work. You also refuse to drive your car during rush hour, as you are constantly absorbing the energetic frustration and aggravation from the other drivers on the road. You have the complete capacity to be an isolationist, as you greatly enjoying your time alone. If you do in fact have friends, they are of a select few, as you only have the capacity to befriend those with whom you can maintain a deep connection with. If you are in a relationship, your partner must be completely on the same level as you are; otherwise, the relationship will never work out, as your partner will lack the fundamental capacity to understand you. Being a sensitive can be an isolating type of lifestyle, but this does not necessarily mean you have to live an unfulfilling isolated life. On your path through this life, you will meet others who are sensitives as well. You may or may not share a connection with one another, but that work is left between the two of you. I know you are not the type whom will utter the defaming words, “I’m bored” as neither you or I have the time or the patience with these types of others. I know you have very special interests, which no one else knows about other than you. It is good to pursue these interests, as this will probably be the most fulfillment you may encounter within this lifetime. You intuitively know you will not experience the type of fulfillment you receive through your interests, by being in any type of personal relationship. I have never experienced any type of fulfillment, within any type of personal relationship. This is my design, the way I am; not possessing the ability to conform on any level, as I am also unable to emotionally connect with those around me. I have worked through this character trait my entire life, as I fully accept this quality, which allows me to live within myself. I was born unto this world with the inner inclination of being solitary, as I have accepted this trait within its entirety. It is true: I have no friends, and two family members who somewhat care about me. This is pretty much all I need, as this is how I have lived throughout the duration of my life. I have never known anything different, as it is extraordinarily difficult for me to emotionally connect with other people, let alone being able to connect with another romantically.
Heart’s Desire
One’s heart’s desire is a curious one at that. It is important not to make another, or to be another’s heart’s desire. Never make another the focus of your heart’s desire, as this is a sacred desire, which is not to be taken lightly. Never allow yourself to be the focus of another’s sacredness, as there will be an unwanted focus upon you and your body energy field. Love and affection are not the same as one’s heart’s desire, as these are two completely separate internal movements. Love and affection are of the heart, but it is of a different type of fluctuation than that of one’s inner desire. When love and affection of the romantic type exist within one’s heart, endorphins and hormones are released, which will produce and induce a euphoric state of blissfulness. When this euphoric state of blissfulness is experienced, one’s psyche will recognize this a love and affection. The main difference between love and affection and one’s heart’s desire, has to do with either an external or internal catalyst. Love and affection are of the external catalyst, while one’s heart’s desire is an internal catalyst. There will be times when these endorphins and hormones will try to fuck with your psychology. No, I do not believe you are grasping what I am communicating; I cannot overstate enough how these endorphins and hormones will completely fuck with your psychology, let alone your wellbeing in every way, on every level imaginable. They are merciless in their attack on your heart, psychology, and your body energy field. You will know when your psychology is being fucked with, as you will begin to start having conversations with yourself. You will know when your body energy field is being fucked with, as you will begin to deteriorate physically, and you will adapt to walking hunched over, as though you are carrying the weight of one thousand pounds upon your back.
By My Side
Tonight I will sleep with my daemons by my side. Within my dark heart is where they will usually go to hide. There is absolutely nothing left of what was once me. My daemons are curious in the way of how they will never leave me be. There is too much insight for me to see from within. There is not enough clarity for me to know where to begin. It really no longer matters. I find it interesting how most things in life soils, rots, or sours. Can you hear them? Those screams are coming from the inner summonings of my divine nature. My inner summoning’s screams are the hymns of my infernal overture. There are not many things which life left by my side. I thought you would be one of them but I could not decide. Your memories still remain trapped within. It seems I have wasted my life away after yours as I have lived within the ultimate sin. This is why my daemons sleep with me by my side. This is why my life has become a place in which only I can hide. My daemons keep me company just as they keep me safe from my inner burn. Under my flesh the memories of you continue to live within me and it is you for which I yearn.
G.G. Kalfas 