They are still talking to me; reminding me how little I have left to fall, in order to hit the bottom of life’s cesspool. Another pacifist trying to give me survival advice. Another noose I will need to tighten. Another indulgent delight I get to take part in. It never gets old; pacifying the ones who constantly need too much attention. Death, will more than likely be the only type of attention they will ever receive from me. The tears and fears they spread amongst themselves. Another virus to add to their motion picture pandemic. What kind of face covering do you wear to protect yourself from their stupidity? Some wear pointy hoods of cotton, while others wear M-95’s. I prefer for them all to see my face; naked and bare, and the disgust which is displayed upon it. It makes no difference to me, of how the others live their lives. All I ask is for the others not to proselytize their stupidity upon me. Really? Is it too much to ask? They get bored too easily; with absolutely no type of personal interests whatsoever, to keep them sharp, agile, or even self-aware. Self-awareness is truly lacking within these types, as though they are expecting everyone around them to be as dull, numb, and as stupid as they are. Very few have the ability to honestly think for themselves. Tell me; which one are you, agile or board?
Tag: philosophy
Life Crushed It.
The sweet moans of life being birthed. The confusion settles in, as the sweet moans are not so sweet. The moans are the crying screams of thoughts, goals, and aspirations being crushed; one at a time. Life has a curious way of encroaching itself upon you, and upon your very consciousness. Life has a sense of humor only it understands. Ha fucking ha. Cyclical. The silent laughter of pain, torment, and rage. I have gone deaf from the silence.
Above and Below Within and Without
You must fully understand what you are dealing with mentally, as you must also dissect and understand what you are personally going through spiritually. You can think until your thoughts run themselves rampant within your mind, or you can decide to take action within your life; creating the much-needed foundation for you to once again build upon. You may find yourself never receiving the external type of help you may think you need, in order to build this foundation of permanence. All of the tools you need are already at your disposal. Nature will only provide for you what you need, only when the time arrives for these provisions to be utilized. You are just as much a part of nature as the trees, birds, the winds, flowers, and the Sun shining upon you and your fragmented life. Nature will only allow the rains to fall upon its Earth, when its birds and flowers need to drink of her eternal nourishment. Nature will only destroy, in order to birth herself once again. She will birth herself in her pure, undeniable image, within the pure, undeniable likeness of her mirror. Inner strength, foresight, and knowing, is needed in order for this rebirth to take form. One cannot maintain a past thought process, while venturing into a new way of life, just as one cannot be who they once were, when seeing the world through a newly created sight within their newly formed mind. When maintaining a previous thought process, while moving forward within an ascending rebirth, you will only guide yourself back to the past, and that in which you are trying to ascend from. This movement forward must be approached in a way which is pure, truthful, and without hesitation. Non-action is the worst kind of action one could embrace, as this habit of waiting for something to happen is deviant within its internal beliefs. This is a display of laziness within the psyche, soul, and the body energy field. Your inertia is holding you back; chained to beliefs, ways, and ideologies, which will continue to maintain their punishments upon you and your life. Be honest within self-inventory, of what does not work for you. Instead of forcing this non-working action to become productive, approach yourself and your new disposition, in a way you can better understand yourself. If you lack the fundamental capacity to understand your thought process; how do you expect to attain the capacity needed, in order to understand anything which occurs within the external world around you? This is the way of nature; above and below, within and without.
From Behind Your Eyes
It can only be tolerated for so long
That piercing feeling
That feeling you get in the back of your neck
It feels as though someone drove a flathead screwdriver into your occipital cavity
It is deep inside
You can feel the screwdriver moving around behind your eyes
It is trying to unscrew your mind from behind your eyes
It will not work
Your brain seems to be welded into your cranium
I have a blowtorch if you would like to borrow it
Ordered Principles of Life
Symbolizing your past Wreckage of Immortality
Time will play tricks on you; half magic, half psychological. Time will make reality as you understand it, seem to mesh itself into a fragmented state of misunderstandings. Time and reality itself, will turn itself into a mirage of memories, which seem to have no purpose, understanding, or meaning. Faces of the past will blend themselves carefully into present time; seeking refuge within the present. These faces will not have purpose within the present time, as they once did within the past. This will be a blunt revealing, to what was once considered charitable and creative. Everything will look, sound, feel, smell, and taste completely different, as it should be different. All that which was known of and familiar within yesterday, will more often seek refuge within today; unfortunately, this refuge will be sought in vain. There will never be any type of refuge for what was known of within yesterday upon today, in present time. The rebirth of a forgotten memory, can sometime be considered a dangerous practice. If a forgotten memory serves no purpose within present time; what would be the benefit of remembering this forgotten muse? The mind has released this past content to the forgotten realms within itself; reliving a dead memory within present time serves only the forgotten past. The voices change, the looks change, yet the mannerisms still remain intact; an ode, which lingers upon the tips of the lips and the tongue. When looking into the eyes of the past, within present time; it is easy to see for yourself how you never belonged there to begin with. A resurrection from your past may appear within your life every now and then, but it is important for you to see it for what it truly is: a suction backwards out of present time. Resurrecting and reliving life through the death of dead memories, will send you backwards through your evolution. It is a quasi-near-death experience, while witnessing the devolved past, materialize right before your eyes. The past belongs where it currently resides, just as you belong where you currently reside. Your present time will eventually become a memory within your past; another distant, and fragmented part of your being and your reality. Can you truly find any type of veneration when looking into the past from present time? What is it about looking back upon the past, which will make you feel good about yourself in present time? What is it exactly you think you may have conquered? The past no longer exists within your reality, within your present time. There will never be any type of solace, sanctuary, validation, or relief, when living within, or looking back upon, the distant remnants of your past. If there is no peace within your mind in present time, you will definitely not be able to find any within your past. Within your present life, there is only enough room for what you take the time to make room for. If you make room for something, someone, or a distant dead memory, which does not help you within present time; you will send present time back into the past, to relive the forgotten and damaged life you once lived. This is a wound you are keeping fresh. A trophy of pain, which you gloriously adorn; symbolizing your past wreckage of immortality. Your favorite fashion accessory. It is perfect for any occasion, and will go great with any outfit. You can even wear it after Labor Day. I will not tell you to take care of yourself, as you have now been released from my life. Your intentions were not to nourish yourself within your present time, but to harvest more of the damaged past you crave and long for.
G.G. Kalfas 