Life is about mastering the internal and external evolutions within one’s lifecycle. One may experience a cycle over and over again, until the cycle itself is mastered by one’s consciousness. I have recognized this patter within the cycles of my life, as well as the cycles within the life of others. There is much to be said, and even more to be learned from living within an unrelenting repetitive lifecycle. There is a closure, an understanding of peace within one’s heart, when a lifecycle comes to a much needed and necessary conclusion. The death of a lifecycle is an ascending movement upward and forward within the depths of one’s internal and external very own understanding of consciousness and life itself. The mixtures of energies and frequencies within one’s lifecycle, solely exist as an exercise of the internal and external will, of one’s understanding of consciousness, and one’s heart’s desire. The kinetic desires and substances contained within the vibrations and movements within the surrounding energies and frequencies within one’s internal and external paradigms, become enhanced and useable, when harnessed by focus and volition of one’s conscious and subconscious minds. Energies and frequencies, along with internal and external vibrations, are moldable when one becomes master of their free will. The underlying understanding of one’s free will, is the innate ability of possessing, in full capacity, the absolute choice and power of focusing one’s mind; therefore, the psychic power contained within their body energy field, upon the living and breathing internal and external realms they mentally, physically, spiritually, and psychically inhabit. The external projection of one’s internal volition upon these realms, can and will create dimensions and doorways within the Æther’s consciousness; allowing interdimensional doorways, pathways, frequencies, and energies to be experienced within this material realm. In its truest essence; one’s volition and knowing, is the fundamental core foundation of any and all forms of lower and higher magick. Without volition and knowing, belief in any type of inner and outer workings, will simply not exist; moreover, these workings will not contain the power needed in order for them to manifest within this, or any other realm. The core foundation of any and all forms of internal or external workings is contained within one’s heart’s desire. Consciousness within itself, is the rawest form of lower and higher magick contained within the Æther. It is important for the individual practitioner to create their own ways, means, and methods, along with their own rituals and incantations, when invoking any type of internal and/or external consciousness. Before any type of consciousness is invoked, one must recognize the vibrational frequency contained within their heart at that specific moment. When one is in alignment with their volition, the inner yearnings of their heart’s desire, and the consciousness they wish to invoke; they will find success within any type of internal or external workings they so choose to induce upon the internal and external realms.
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Pretentious Pretending
The sounds of the sirens keep knocking. The looks from their eyes keep staring. An easy distraction, which will pull you under its spell. Basic words for basic minds. I know you don’t mind. I know you do not understand my words, wordings, or meaning. A one hit wonder that no one wonders about. A cyclops-minded type of enthusiasm, which leaves you emptied, but full of guilt. Those day have now died, along with the attention you once had. And no, you will never see it again. I know you still do not understand my words, but your pretentious type of pretending suits you the best.
Recognizing the Humans
I do not recognize the humans anymore. There has been a change within their DNA, which has altered them physically, psychically, and spiritually. There exists a lack mentality within the humans nowadays. When one ventures out into this etiquette lacking society, you can actually see the looks on the others faces, as though they are not going to get what is rightfully theirs. Rarely do I see a smile on another’s face when out in this etiquette lacking society. I watch as the humans walk aimlessly through their lives; looking for some type of hope, with the blank expression of their life’s devastation, solemnly hanging off their face. Why not kill yourself, if you are that miserable living your life? The hurt and pain being expressed upon the others faces, is in fact brutal. The others do not have the capacity, nor the knowledge of how to let go. Their thoughts create their facial features, just as their thoughts create their now abrasive body energy field. If you are a sensitive, which means you are highly sensitive to energy, and the energy others project, you may in fact find it difficult at times to be out in society. You will find yourself going out into society more in the evenings, as opposed to during the day, that is if you are not at work. You also refuse to drive your car during rush hour, as you are constantly absorbing the energetic frustration and aggravation from the other drivers on the road. You have the complete capacity to be an isolationist, as you greatly enjoying your time alone. If you do in fact have friends, they are of a select few, as you only have the capacity to befriend those with whom you can maintain a deep connection with. If you are in a relationship, your partner must be completely on the same level as you are; otherwise, the relationship will never work out, as your partner will lack the fundamental capacity to understand you. Being a sensitive can be an isolating type of lifestyle, but this does not necessarily mean you have to live an unfulfilling isolated life. On your path through this life, you will meet others who are sensitives as well. You may or may not share a connection with one another, but that work is left between the two of you. I know you are not the type whom will utter the defaming words, “I’m bored” as neither you or I have the time or the patience with these types of others. I know you have very special interests, which no one else knows about other than you. It is good to pursue these interests, as this will probably be the most fulfillment you may encounter within this lifetime. You intuitively know you will not experience the type of fulfillment you receive through your interests, by being in any type of personal relationship. I have never experienced any type of fulfillment, within any type of personal relationship. This is my design, the way I am; not possessing the ability to conform on any level, as I am also unable to emotionally connect with those around me. I have worked through this character trait my entire life, as I fully accept this quality, which allows me to live within myself. I was born unto this world with the inner inclination of being solitary, as I have accepted this trait within its entirety. It is true: I have no friends, and two family members who somewhat care about me. This is pretty much all I need, as this is how I have lived throughout the duration of my life. I have never known anything different, as it is extraordinarily difficult for me to emotionally connect with other people, let alone being able to connect with another romantically.
Heart’s Desire
One’s heart’s desire is a curious one at that. It is important not to make another, or to be another’s heart’s desire. Never make another the focus of your heart’s desire, as this is a sacred desire, which is not to be taken lightly. Never allow yourself to be the focus of another’s sacredness, as there will be an unwanted focus upon you and your body energy field. Love and affection are not the same as one’s heart’s desire, as these are two completely separate internal movements. Love and affection are of the heart, but it is of a different type of fluctuation than that of one’s inner desire. When love and affection of the romantic type exist within one’s heart, endorphins and hormones are released, which will produce and induce a euphoric state of blissfulness. When this euphoric state of blissfulness is experienced, one’s psyche will recognize this a love and affection. The main difference between love and affection and one’s heart’s desire, has to do with either an external or internal catalyst. Love and affection are of the external catalyst, while one’s heart’s desire is an internal catalyst. There will be times when these endorphins and hormones will try to fuck with your psychology. No, I do not believe you are grasping what I am communicating; I cannot overstate enough how these endorphins and hormones will completely fuck with your psychology, let alone your wellbeing in every way, on every level imaginable. They are merciless in their attack on your heart, psychology, and your body energy field. You will know when your psychology is being fucked with, as you will begin to start having conversations with yourself. You will know when your body energy field is being fucked with, as you will begin to deteriorate physically, and you will adapt to walking hunched over, as though you are carrying the weight of one thousand pounds upon your back.
The Breathing Movement of Consciousness
The vital essence contained within any and all types of life is the existence of consciousness. Consciousness, is the living and pulsating energetic frequencies of vibrations, which keeps life alive by movement. Everything which exists within this realm of what we consider reality, is a living breathing movement of consciousness. Any physical object which exists here within the material realm, vibrates at a specific frequency, which allow the object to exist as the material for in which it does. A subtle change in frequency, will in fact change the object’s material form. This is where the idea and the alchemical practice of transmutation stems from, as any material object can transmute into a different physical form, given the correct circumstances. The fundamental knowing of how to transmute matter within the material realm, is contained within the inner knowledge of transmuting one’s own consciousness from within, to without; from internal to external. Without this knowledge, any type of internal working is futile. The main source for this internal working to occur is clarity. One’s mind must be clear of all distractions, emotions, and of the partial wants and needs. Within this clarity, a knowing must be maintained in order to facilitate the inner workings. A belief is subject to distractions, emotions, and the partial wants and needs, while purpose within the transmutation is contained within the absolute knowing of what will be birthed into fruition. This is the core element for a transmutation to occur. It is of the greatest importance to keep and maintain secrecy of your internal and external workings. Society is filled with nonbelievers and naysayers, who want nothing more than to see your failure of any workings you will ever be involved with. This is one of the greatest deceptions one’s consciousness will know during a human’s life experience. It is important to know these facts, prior to becoming involved within any circumstance. In order to have an advantage over the others around you, it is important to know the lies and deceptions within another’s mirror; the same mirror they deviously use in order to project their negative energy from.
By My Side
Tonight I will sleep with my daemons by my side. Within my dark heart is where they will usually go to hide. There is absolutely nothing left of what was once me. My daemons are curious in the way of how they will never leave me be. There is too much insight for me to see from within. There is not enough clarity for me to know where to begin. It really no longer matters. I find it interesting how most things in life soils, rots, or sours. Can you hear them? Those screams are coming from the inner summonings of my divine nature. My inner summoning’s screams are the hymns of my infernal overture. There are not many things which life left by my side. I thought you would be one of them but I could not decide. Your memories still remain trapped within. It seems I have wasted my life away after yours as I have lived within the ultimate sin. This is why my daemons sleep with me by my side. This is why my life has become a place in which only I can hide. My daemons keep me company just as they keep me safe from my inner burn. Under my flesh the memories of you continue to live within me and it is you for which I yearn.
G.G. Kalfas 