Inner Sight

Build yourself up or down; either way you will be making progress. You cannot measure progress through success or failure, as progress is a subjective manifestation within one’s internal maturity. You know, none of it really matters anymore. So, why not let go of it all, and simply allow life to unfold upon you? You can do that, but you can also keep your sanity in a safe place, by keeping it protected. Who am I kidding? You’re right; there is no safe hiding place, where you could keep anything protected, let alone your precious sanity. It’s another one of life’s tricks; a game life will play with you whenever it gets a chance to have fun with your psychology. I know this entry might not make any sense to you at this current point in time. The next time you are having a complete mental breakdown, simply re-read this entry; then it will make complete sense to you. These times do not come around too often, but when they do, they can be somewhat rigorous and deflating. What you will lack in strength, you will compensate with depression, anxiety, and self-loathing. These three mental states can be the best motivators you may ever come across. At first, they will not seem to be such great motivators. It is only when you fully accept and comprehend yourself in an authentic and demeaning way; you will begin to see yourself in the light you were born into. Everyone is born into a specific light radiance. Some are born into a bright glowing radiance, which will blind those around them. For you and I; we were born into a light, which casts a radiance within the darkness of the purest form. This is only for you and I to witness. The others do not and cannot comprehend the capacity which is needed to be contained within them, in order to understand you and I. This is exactly how you and I need life to be. The undeserving lemmings do not deserve to witness the raw beauty, which is contained within our hearts and thoughts. You and I are the only ones who can recognize and see within one another. Our inner sight can be penetrative and devouring. This is perhaps the sole reasoning as to why you and I intimidate the others to the extent we do. They have never had the capacity to understand either one of us, and now you and I know they never will.

EGO

The longing. The belonging. The symphonic appetite of might versus right. Wrong does not exist when might is starving. Butterfly wings when Nature sings Her songs of goodbyes. Fractured sensations bring about late revelations, of what was always known. The subtle hands of thirsty glands, will pour forth upon one’s stained Life’s sands. The confusion is not a delusion within the realm of substitution, as it is pouring forth the waste and haste from one’s inner contusion. One can feel the essence of Life dripping down from their hand, as the power is thick from within Life’s gland; providing it is being giving a tight enough squeeze. Life will squeeze you at specific times within your Life. This is when you might want to squeeze Life right back. Don’t worry, Life will not take it personally as you always seem to do. Life knows better than that. The human ego always seems to get in the way of one’s Life. Maybe when we stop living through our ego, we will begin to start living Life.

One’s Inner Harmony

I find it interesting how another will personalize the circumstances and situations within external world, and also personalize the circumstances and situations, which may be occurring within another’s life. When another is undergoing some type of life transition, it is a good idea to observe, but to never get involved. When one personalizes the experiences of another, this denotes a self-centeredness and a self-important closedminded paradigm. Another’s life experience has nothing to do with you. If it did, you would more than likely be experiencing the same circumstances. It is important to release this unhealthy type of self-centered thought process from your body energy field. By personalizing another’s circumstance and experience, you are in actuality drawing that specific type of energy and frequency upon you and your body energy field. The mind is a mental frequency, which can change its vibrational pattern and frequency at any given moment; with or without your permission. Think of your body energy field as a protective armor; keep that in which you do not want to entering it out, and allowing that in which you are in harmony with to absorb onto you. One’s inner harmony is achieved when the frequencies and vibrations within one’s body energy field are working in alignment with one another.

Salvation and Aptitude

I have stood at the top of many mountains. I have conquered the behemoth’s I stand upon. Many upon many men have conquered only one mountain. They allowed the mountain’s altitude to dwindle their salvation and aptitude; thinking they would never know another mountain’s summit. I know triumph first hand. Knowing of the Left-Hand. I know love first hand. Broken. I have seen the catastrophes played out over and over again. They could never make me blink. But you. Only you. You brought me to my knees. You desperately searched your path, as to why I could never be. Not once searching your path, as to how I could be. Another hidden movement within the realms of isolation. Melancholic moments memorized momentarily. Many of these seductions have been obliterated, during your synthetic relapses. A seductress with slit wrists. Mating pigeons. Broken glasses. Black rats. Dreams of a reckoning. Losing your money over honey. Pushing love away to maintain an extended vacation stay. Taking love straight down your throat. Hoping it will find the poor life choices and decisions; cutting them directly from your speech. Broken words and shallow incantations; fulfilling your erotic daydreamed hallucinations. I am your reality check. Another disposition you will come to regret. I am the mirror you refuse to look into. The one you tried to shatter into a million pieces. I will cut through you every time; shattering the truth right before your eyes. Slicing the rot away from your words. Force feeding your lies right back into you. I will use your words along with my might, to fist fuck your throat down into your stomach. I know you cannot make up your own mind. This is why you are lost on your precious spiritual path. You are a poor excuse for a spiritual awakening. You will eventually find your way. A way back to exactly where it is you have come from. If you allow the material to control and reside over the spiritual. Everything contained within you lies. Your lies are more honest than your heart. Your lies are the most honest part of your being. I have come across many charlatans such as yourself throughout this life, but none who possess your special type of vulgar finessing. This is your special quality. The most high and honest quality you possess. Who taught you such electrifying and deceitful ways? You have cultivated these qualities into such a refined artform. Drastic measures for drastic treasures. There will never be any hope of you finding a soul ritual.

The Dream Merchant

Dreams can carry one from one day to the next. Sometimes, one’s dreams are all they may have to keep them going, to keep them alive for one more day on this Earth; only to see if today will be the day their dreams come true. One carries their dreams close to them, near and dear within their heart’s desire. The only reason I am still here is to see if I can fulfill just one of my dreams while I am alive within this mortal realm. I have given up, or you could really look at it as letting go, of many of the dreams I once had, as I no longer have any interest in fulfilling any of them. So, I simply released them from my body energy field and my consciousness. Yes, it is absolutely possible for one to transcend and evolve from the dreams they once possessed. When one evolves within their protected consciousness, so too does the way one lives their life; therefore, the dreams they once possessed and held closely to themselves within their heart’s desire, dissipate back to from where they once came. One can never know the identity of a dream within their consciousness, all one has the capacity to understand is that dream within them longs to be heard, and demands to live life on its own within this mortal realm. I have lost count of the number of dreams, which have either fled from, or have died within my heart’s desire. Sometimes, I think these dreams die within my, because it has taken me too long to fulfill these dreams, or I am not able to fulfill these dreams. It feels as though the dreams know exactly what is going on within my heart, and they either commit suicide, knowing they will never be fulfilled, or they simply leave to go to another’s heart’s desire, in order to become lived and fulfilled. When one possesses a dream within their heart’s desire, that dream chose to exist and live within them. If the dream exists within you, then you have the full capacity to fulfill the dreams need to be given life, and the ability to fulfill the longing for breath contained within your heart’s desire. Dreams are the most important part of being alive, as they keep us moving forward within life, when we feel as though we are falling behind. The dreams we have contained within our heart’s desire, are just as important and necessary as the air we breathe; we cannot live without either one. Within your life, somewhere along your journey, you possess a moment of clarity within your life. This moment will contain your life’s purpose and meaning. This moment will truly allow you to see where it is exactly you have been, and where it is exactly you are going. You will be awakened to all of the hidden hopes and dreams which are contained within your heart’s desire, but never knew they existed. You will now come to possess a fluent and profound understanding of yourself, in ways you previously have not. A metamorphosis will also take place within your life. Once you awaken from your chrysalis, you will not recognize your old life, as you will no be ready to create a new way of living for yourself. You will now soar within the skies and clouds of your new life; leaving behind the wreckage, trauma, and hatefulness contained within the others and the external world. You will now be living your new life freely within yourself, and within the kind warm loving radiance of the Sun’s light, and of Mother Nature’s arms.

When One Awakens

It is only when one has awakened from their conscious slumber, when they will intuitively come to understand how they have no other choice in life, other than to find themselves within their heart’s desire. When one awakens to who and what they are within themselves, a great responsibility is placed upon them. This is the internal desire, responsibility, and obligation for one to ascend to their higher purpose within this life. For those who are still asleep, and have not awakened; they will remain unaware of this great responsibility living within themselves. For some of the others, they will transition from this realm to the next, without ever knowing this fantastic responsibility within themselves. As long as one remains comfortable within their life, this comfort will maintain their internal ignorance about themselves; moreover, this comfort will inevitably deem self-awareness and self-reliance unnecessary. There are many of the others within this realm, who are completely unaware of the existence of their eternal home. One cannot inform another is has not awakened to themselves; moreover, the security which exists within mind numbing ignorance, is a luxury you and I will never know or experience. The true, purest fundamental essence of one’s heart’s desire and eternal home, is the understanding of the Infernal Consciousness of creation, which exists deep within it. After one awakens to the external world of illusions, and to the fundamental truth within themselves; a numbing effect will shroud one’s body energy field. This numbing effect is a defense mechanism, a protective shield of sorts; protecting the newly awakened one from the toxic and malignant energies, tonalities, and frequencies within the external realm. Once an awakened one has fortified themselves within their body energy field, the numbing effect will dissipate rather quickly; allowing one to instinctively protect themselves against the toxic and malignant external realm. There are many different factors involved, when protecting one’s self from life’s atrocities, which freely roam haphazardly within the external world. When it concerns finding one’s eternal home and heart’s desire, the only place one ever needs to explore is within themselves. I cannot give you specific instructions, as everyone’s eternal home and heart’s desire, is completely different and unique. The only information I can give to you, is the knowing of its existence within yourself. There are so many things which we seek out within the external world. Yet, what we seek within the external, is in actuality contained within ourselves. There are others within this realm, who never quite figure this out. It took me many decades to realize this truth; consequently, it took me the same amount of time to come to the realization and understanding that what I experienced within the external world, was an exact representation of my thoughts, how I felt about myself, and my overall paradigm within my heart. Once I awakened to this infernal truth, my entire life transformed right before my eyes.