This was the first book I published back in 2018. The title of the book, You Cannot Put a Picture in My Frame of Mind, comes from lyrics to a song I had written back in 1999. In the late 90’s to early 2000’s, I was lead guitarist for a death metal band here in Houston, Texas. Nothing ever became of the band, because I quit when I decided to check myself into a drug and alcohol rehabilitation center. This book is a culmination of song lyrics, daily journal entries, and dream journal entries, which I had written pre and post sobriety. I sobered up to save my life, yet throughout the years, I sometimes question if it was all worth it. Sometimes it is yes; sometimes it is not yes. It’s interesting how life can take you to places, which you never thought you would experience. The highs and lows seem to balance themselves out: flatlining. I have no words of wisdom, or “deep” philosophical insights, which no one truly gets. I have nothing for you today, except for you to enjoy your life. If you do not experience life, it might turn on you like a rabid dog, and experience you.
This is the base level of my foundation; the raw slab of consciousness, in which I have built my life upon from the ground up. My isolation chamber is my home. This is where I go to heal myself, and to be free from the bondage of the external world. Never place your life within another’s hands, as disappointment will find you every time. Live your life free from the others, as they are not here to bring peace into your life. The others will only bring their dogmatic views, opinions, and neuroses into your life; strangling the breath within you at any and every chance they can get. The catacombs within one’s mind, is the anchor of one’s inner thoughts. Within these catacombs, the true individual can heal themselves within their chrysalis, and move forward from any transformation they might be currently undergoing. This is how you and I heal ourselves: from within. The illusive external world will have you believing in lies and fear, as though these are real concepts. Nothing could be further from the absolute truth within one’s self. Within our minds; this is where our reality is created; not by a story we are told from another’s lying lips. Consciousness is the only defense the true individual has to protect their inner essence against the cesspool of neuroses within the illusive external world. It is proper to understand how the others, sheeple, and laborers know absolutely nothing about individuality, not do they know what true independence really is. For the true individual to spend extended periods of time within the illusive external world, without healing themselves within the catacombs of their inner essence; will bring about an increasingly toxic frequency within the true individual’s body energy field. This is why it is so important to never depend upon another person, nor the external world to heal one’s self from within. The majority of the sloth-like, uninitiated others, will most certainly resort to alcohol, drugs, food, porn, or other external vices, as a basic sheeple-response, half-assed attempt to heal some part of themselves from within. The majority of the others follow this route, as it is the easiest and quickest diluting method to numb any type of pain from within. But with these weak-willed and weak-minded others, they usually fail to recognize the difference between feeling numb, and healing one’s self from within. This is a commonality the others usually have in common, as most of the commoners fail to recognize most things in life.
VERNAL FIRE PRESS is an independent publishing house based in Houston, Texas. We were birthed out of the fires of necessity, to reveal the unseen ideologies of our spiritual paths. Our genres deal with the darker sides of life, as well as the hidden aspects of our personal human existence.
Within each and every one of us; lives a voice, an expression, a longing to seek out the specific thoughts, ideologies, and the modalities of the expression within our hearts. There is a specific underlying purpose behind the ideologies and philosophies of VERNAL FIRE PRESS. Our philosophy and our purpose, is to allow the seeking of internal and external explorations to be known and to be fully explored. Our brand of ideologies and philosophies are not meant, nor are they designed for the masses; nor are they designed for the weak minded. We are designated for the select few; as you will never find the select few, integrating themselves among the mindless pedestrians, who aimlessly meander through their lives. The individual, the true individual, knows the absolute truth of themselves, and will never conform to another’s ideologies or beliefs.
We live our lives within ourselves; within the mirror of our intents, and within the mirror of our expressions and diverse modalities.
G.G. Kalfas 