This was the first book I published back in 2018. The title of the book, You Cannot Put a Picture in My Frame of Mind, comes from lyrics to a song I had written back in 1999. In the late 90’s to early 2000’s, I was lead guitarist for a death metal band here in Houston, Texas. Nothing ever became of the band, because I quit when I decided to check myself into a drug and alcohol rehabilitation center. This book is a culmination of song lyrics, daily journal entries, and dream journal entries, which I had written pre and post sobriety. I sobered up to save my life, yet throughout the years, I sometimes question if it was all worth it. Sometimes it is yes; sometimes it is not yes. It’s interesting how life can take you to places, which you never thought you would experience. The highs and lows seem to balance themselves out: flatlining. I have no words of wisdom, or “deep” philosophical insights, which no one truly gets. I have nothing for you today, except for you to enjoy your life. If you do not experience life, it might turn on you like a rabid dog, and experience you.
There is a specific desire, which is contained within one’s consciousness. This innate desire, is the undying need is for consciousness to manifest itself upon this material realm. If you pay close attention when you travel out into the external world, you can see it all around, and you can feel it fall from your brow within each bead of sweat. This external manifestation, only exists within the senses, at least this is what we think. The true manifestations one’s consciousness will bring forth upon the external realm, is in actuality never seen, but is only energetically felt from within. The true manifestations one’s consciousness desires to release upon the external realm, is in fact vibrational frequencies, which will indefinitely resonate within the Universe until the end of time. As energies and frequencies resonate and travel through space and time, we humans foolishly only seem to take our small microcosm into consideration. We seem to forget about anything which may happen outside of our immediate surroundings, let alone state or national surroundings. When our consciousness sets itself upon the external realm, its vibrations are felt within our immediate microcosms, as well as the vast outlying macrocosms. The total sum of our consciousness’s frequencies and vibrations, will travel infinitely throughout space and time. For some of you, this might be a little difficult to comprehend; moreover, there is so much information within this Universe, which the human mind is incapable of understanding. The majority of the others, care not of the macrocosm, as they feel as though they are not affected by it, and it is not affected by them. Little do they know exactly how wrong they are. Everything affects everything, as consciousness is everything. Consciousness is everything you experience through your senses, as it is also that “vibe” you get from energetic frequencies, which you can sense (internally) when you are within the external world. Many of the others, are in fact ignorant, of the power and dominion their consciousness ultimately possesses over the external world. The others are purposefully kept ignorant of this sacred hidden, as they would not be able to fully comprehend the true majesty in which they internally possess. The consciousness of residual energies and frequencies, are living and breathing in all of the objects surrounding you and I at this very moment. Everything within the external world, has some type of permanent energy attached to it. Consciousness lives and breathes in matter, just as fish live and breathe in water. If one wishes to have dominion over the external world, there are steps required in order to attain this type of projection. One must visualize the object in question within their mind’s eye, as their complete and total vision must be focused upon this object within the mind’s eye. Once the object is seen vibrantly within the mind’s eye, you must visualize the desired effect you choose to place over this object. Once your complete and total will is focused upon this object; visualize and see the final result existing it within your mind’s eye, as well as the external world. Once you learn how to project your will upon the external world, and have accomplished success within these workings; your internal confidence will increase as your workings will become more powerful and focused. This is not an overnight exercise, as this technique takes a tremendous amount of work and focus. Very few people within this mortal realm, have the internal capacity and power of will, to impose and invoke their absolute will upon the forces within the external world. There are some who have a predilection to this volition, which can be projected upon the external world. The foundation for this dominion is a strong mind and an even stronger will. Those who are meek, and are in possession of a weak constitution, will never be able to impose their will upon the external world. Nature does not seek out to protect the weak-minded or the weak-willed, as nature herself will perish if she allows the weak to survive and flourish within her gardens. This is why only the strong of mind and will, have dominion over the external world. There are very few things in life one will have power over, at least this is what is expected of you to believe. This is simply not true. You have complete and total control and dominion over your life, but it is your responsibility alone to recognize this fact. Never believe something, someone, or an external event or circumstances has any type of power over you. Nothing and no one has power over you, unless you give your power away to it; therefore, giving it permission to do so. You have a constant power and control over your own life. Never allow anything contained within the external world to have any type of power over your consciousness, thoughts, nor your emotions. If you do in fact submit your internal power to the external world, you are weak-minded and weak-willed. This is no way to live, if you want to achieve a higher level of internal and external consciousness.
This is the base level of my foundation; the raw slab of consciousness, in which I have built my life upon from the ground up. My isolation chamber is my home. This is where I go to heal myself, and to be free from the bondage of the external world. Never place your life within another’s hands, as disappointment will find you every time. Live your life free from the others, as they are not here to bring peace into your life. The others will only bring their dogmatic views, opinions, and neuroses into your life; strangling the breath within you at any and every chance they can get. The catacombs within one’s mind, is the anchor of one’s inner thoughts. Within these catacombs, the true individual can heal themselves within their chrysalis, and move forward from any transformation they might be currently undergoing. This is how you and I heal ourselves: from within. The illusive external world will have you believing in lies and fear, as though these are real concepts. Nothing could be further from the absolute truth within one’s self. Within our minds; this is where our reality is created; not by a story we are told from another’s lying lips. Consciousness is the only defense the true individual has to protect their inner essence against the cesspool of neuroses within the illusive external world. It is proper to understand how the others, sheeple, and laborers know absolutely nothing about individuality, not do they know what true independence really is. For the true individual to spend extended periods of time within the illusive external world, without healing themselves within the catacombs of their inner essence; will bring about an increasingly toxic frequency within the true individual’s body energy field. This is why it is so important to never depend upon another person, nor the external world to heal one’s self from within. The majority of the sloth-like, uninitiated others, will most certainly resort to alcohol, drugs, food, porn, or other external vices, as a basic sheeple-response, half-assed attempt to heal some part of themselves from within. The majority of the others follow this route, as it is the easiest and quickest diluting method to numb any type of pain from within. But with these weak-willed and weak-minded others, they usually fail to recognize the difference between feeling numb, and healing one’s self from within. This is a commonality the others usually have in common, as most of the commoners fail to recognize most things in life.
At times, the weight and thickness of the energetic molasses, which can surround us at certain times in our lives, can and will weigh you down thoroughly and completely. What is it exactly that may be holding you back, which is steadily maintaining a stagnant flow of energetic communications within your life? Only you can answer that question, as I have never been able to do anything for you. I know you desire and seek peace within your mind, but do you really think the others will allow you obtain this illusively desired state of being? No, they will not. It is all up to you; just as it has always been. You are solely living for yourself; always remember that. No one cares about you, and they never will. Now, they may act as though they do care, but this is only because they may be getting something out of acting as though they do from another person. This is how the others operate within their lives; pretending to be something they never were to begin with. This is the way of the world, as humanity is the toxic pollutant; suffocating the ecosystem with every breath they breathe. The putridity these mouth breathers exhale, is in actuality the real cause of climate change.
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It has now ended. All of this without having a beginning. No understanding. For what it was created for. I could see the despairing look within your eyes. Distant and ever-glaring. Your skeleton kisses. Numb, lacking conviction. There was no feeling or emotion put into any one of them. A routine you know all too well. I was just another. A man from a mother. A man you felt needed to know the power of your rejection. A man who was going to show you a deep internal infection. It was not that powerful. As the stories would allow you to believe. I have dealt with atrocities such as yourself for most of my life. One of my avid pastimes. You can provide the heartbreaking part. I will provide the breaking part. Your inner sights have been blinded; never seeing the created damage of your life. You are in fact the damaged damage. The internal and external defamation of solicited ideologies. You are the stagnation of misinterpreted philosophies. Hollow body. Life’s commodity. Everything and everyone are for sale. Sale of the century. Sale of impiety. The sale of living in betrayal. Liquidating your morals and standards. Pennies on the dollar. Auctioning your standards off to the highest bidder. You are extraordinarily protective of your lost nature. I have never held you responsible for yourself. Many of the sheeple do not know they have the power to be responsible for themselves. I know you were not always this way. I knew you before you started your exploitation expedition. You took a couple of wrong turns. Never caring to get right with yourself. This is why you have harvested the shattered memories within your burnt garden of lies. This is what created your landscape of disillusionment. There is nothing to reach out to within your psyche. There is no communication within sight. Just the shallow end of your cesspool, which may need a little bit more chlorine. Pissing in the pool. You described yourself as deep, honest, and spiritual. It was a lie you could never deny. I have caught you in many of these, many of times. I have dealt with enough lies within my life. I can smell the lies before the mouth putrefies the air with their syllables. I will allow you to maintain the belief of you being strong. You are as strong, as steel is weak. You will never again know my thoughts. I will give you exactly what you have given to me. Nothing.
G.G. Kalfas 