Certain words bring forth certain ideologies. Poisonous mixtures of cantankerous misanthropes. The needle and the thread. Sew back together the lost lives of the frolicking dead. A lost part of life. Retrieving a lost substance. An abusive relationship. Maintained through obsession. Depression is the recollection of masturbation. I am the harbinger of necrotic tendencies. The death within every breath you breathe. It is life I incinerate as the soul becomes disbursed. This is when she looks at me in her peculiar way. Behind her eyes. She thinks of me between her thighs. There are no lies. Within her cries. Only the blissful decadence of what lies within. Her hands and thoughts. Violently caressing me from within. The inner longings of her passion. Silently screaming to be heard. Wings of a feather. Words once remembered. Flying high within the night sky. Along with the raven’s word. Lingering on her warm breath to be heard. Amongst the cries hidden within the forest’s rotting trees. This is where we have hidden ourselves away from the world. Amongst the rot, the darkness, and the growth within the dying. This is our home. Within the rot and the darkness. This is where you and I belong.
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Spiritual Crimes
You knew the truth this entire time. One can become blind, to that in which they do not want to see. Are you able to see me now? I have been righht in front of you this entire time. I am a physical manifestation of your inner expression. A truth which can never be denied, nor satisfied. I will forever linger within your yearnings. A desire tasted, but never wasted. You have been wasteful plenty of times. Almost to the point of being guilty of spiritual crimes. Remember; I do not hold judgement against others. Yet, I will hold their hearts right before their eyes, and shred it to pieces, just as I did yours before your eyes. Simon says: you lost. So now you can go fuck off!
The Truth?
There is one aspect, which does in fact have the capacity to alter one’s internal nature, and this aspect is survival. Given the circumstances and the events which may arise within one’s life, in order for them to enter into survival mode; there is no type of measurement available, in which to understand the impact this may have upon their consciousness, and their inner nature contained within their heart’s desire. When considering the short-term and long-term ramifications of one entering into survival mode for an extended period of time, will definitely leave one with a manipulated and deformed consciousness and inner nature. Is it at all possible for one to return to their previous way of living life, prior to their consciousness and inner nature becoming manipulated and deformed? I doubt it very much. I very much doubt anyone who experiences any type of external manipulation and deformity within their consciousness and inner nature, by being induced into survival mode by any type of external imposition, would ever have a chance of living the same type of life as they did prior to entering survival mode.
There are many truths hidden within one’s consciousness and inner nature, which will be revealed onto them, once they have entered into the sublevels, which will arise when one feels extreme impositions from the external world. It is the type of external imposition, which will make the lining on the inside of one’s stomach want to crawl away. Each truth is unique within each individual, as there are no two truths which will ever be the same. The sublevels, these are the cracks and crevasses in between one’s consciousness and inner nature, which if not careful, one may fall in and become stuck within their own creation of what they consider Hell to be. I have witnessed it so many times with the others, as I myself have experienced this type of alternate reality. These sublevels, are in fact the worst type of experience one could ever endure mentally and/or emotionally within their consciousness and inner nature. It can be extraordinarily difficult returning to yourself, when coming back from being stuck within the many numerous sublevels within your consciousness and inner nature. This experience will leave a permanent scar, a permanent gash upon your soul, and the Æons, which will contain the rest of your incarnations until eternity. If one comes to find they are in possession of an irrational phobia, which makes absolutely no sense to them; it is more than likely their soul has been scared within a previous incarnation, which has in fact created the irrational phobia(s) one is experiencing within this life. One’s lifetime is simply not long enough for one to completely comprehend themselves, or their consciousness and inner nature for that matter. It will take an adept many lifetimes, to grasp the depth contained within their consciousness and inner nature. For one to fully comprehend and understand their consciousness and inner nature within one lifetime, is not realistic. Yes, one may in fact possess a great understanding within the light and darkness contained within themselves, their consciousness, and inner nature; although, to conquer one’s self within one lifecycle is not exactly how one’s lifecycle works.
The truth? There is not an absolute truth, which will generically fit everyone’s life paradigm, as this simply does not exist, nor is it realistic. There are many universal truths, which exist deep within one’s consciousness, as these conscious truths are the same for each conscious experience contained within the Infernal Consciousness. The way one may experience their life is through the paradigms of their consciousness and their inner nature. Yet, there are other factors, which will be induced upon one’s consciousness and inner nature by the external world. These factors, are the unforeseen variables one may or may not experience within the external realm. One’s consciousness and inner nature will experience many adaptations within their lifecycle, as there are too many factors and variables at play, which might affect their way of life. It is important for the individual to care and be responsible for their consciousness and inner nature within this lifetime, as this is all you will have, in order to get you through life.
A Constant Power and Control
There is a specific desire, which is contained within one’s consciousness. This innate desire, is the undying need is for consciousness to manifest itself upon this material realm. If you pay close attention when you travel out into the external world, you can see it all around, and you can feel it fall from your brow within each bead of sweat. This external manifestation, only exists within the senses, at least this is what we think. The true manifestations one’s consciousness will bring forth upon the external realm, is in actuality never seen, but is only energetically felt from within. The true manifestations one’s consciousness desires to release upon the external realm, is in fact vibrational frequencies, which will indefinitely resonate within the Universe until the end of time. As energies and frequencies resonate and travel through space and time, we humans foolishly only seem to take our small microcosm into consideration. We seem to forget about anything which may happen outside of our immediate surroundings, let alone state or national surroundings. When our consciousness sets itself upon the external realm, its vibrations are felt within our immediate microcosms, as well as the vast outlying macrocosms. The total sum of our consciousness’s frequencies and vibrations, will travel infinitely throughout space and time. For some of you, this might be a little difficult to comprehend; moreover, there is so much information within this Universe, which the human mind is incapable of understanding. The majority of the others, care not of the macrocosm, as they feel as though they are not affected by it, and it is not affected by them. Little do they know exactly how wrong they are. Everything affects everything, as consciousness is everything. Consciousness is everything you experience through your senses, as it is also that “vibe” you get from energetic frequencies, which you can sense (internally) when you are within the external world. Many of the others, are in fact ignorant, of the power and dominion their consciousness ultimately possesses over the external world. The others are purposefully kept ignorant of this sacred hidden, as they would not be able to fully comprehend the true majesty in which they internally possess. The consciousness of residual energies and frequencies, are living and breathing in all of the objects surrounding you and I at this very moment. Everything within the external world, has some type of permanent energy attached to it. Consciousness lives and breathes in matter, just as fish live and breathe in water. If one wishes to have dominion over the external world, there are steps required in order to attain this type of projection. One must visualize the object in question within their mind’s eye, as their complete and total vision must be focused upon this object within the mind’s eye. Once the object is seen vibrantly within the mind’s eye, you must visualize the desired effect you choose to place over this object. Once your complete and total will is focused upon this object; visualize and see the final result existing it within your mind’s eye, as well as the external world. Once you learn how to project your will upon the external world, and have accomplished success within these workings; your internal confidence will increase as your workings will become more powerful and focused. This is not an overnight exercise, as this technique takes a tremendous amount of work and focus. Very few people within this mortal realm, have the internal capacity and power of will, to impose and invoke their absolute will upon the forces within the external world. There are some who have a predilection to this volition, which can be projected upon the external world. The foundation for this dominion is a strong mind and an even stronger will. Those who are meek, and are in possession of a weak constitution, will never be able to impose their will upon the external world. Nature does not seek out to protect the weak-minded or the weak-willed, as nature herself will perish if she allows the weak to survive and flourish within her gardens. This is why only the strong of mind and will, have dominion over the external world. There are very few things in life one will have power over, at least this is what is expected of you to believe. This is simply not true. You have complete and total control and dominion over your life, but it is your responsibility alone to recognize this fact. Never believe something, someone, or an external event or circumstances has any type of power over you. Nothing and no one has power over you, unless you give your power away to it; therefore, giving it permission to do so. You have a constant power and control over your own life. Never allow anything contained within the external world to have any type of power over your consciousness, thoughts, nor your emotions. If you do in fact submit your internal power to the external world, you are weak-minded and weak-willed. This is no way to live, if you want to achieve a higher level of internal and external consciousness.
I Know You Do
It is these hollow mornings that will definitely eat you alive. In one solid bite. In one solid swallow. Those softly creeping footsteps you keep hearing coming from behind you, those footsteps are the sound of uncertainty coming to pay you a visit. An old friend who would like to remind you of your life and of your past. As though you do not have enough remnants of your past haunting you on a daily basis, uncertainty wants to make sure you absorb it fully, wholly, and completely. All of it. Every tiny morsel. Family and friends are also laughing at you. They never could understand your thought process, let alone anything which makes you who you are. The voices are grading and intruding upon one’s consciousness; violating the serenity wanting to bloom from within. No one could ever understand me, but I know you do. At least you act as though you do.
A Dying Compulsion
It is another way for you and I to connect. It is an energy transference, which many of the others cannot differentiate from any other mundane experience. You are unique in this special way. You can see through and beyond it; you can see through all of life’s illusions. As for me, I am the illusion which allows you to see beyond all of the illusions life and myself have to offer you. There is no other way, as there is no escape from me. I have created all of the sensations you have ever experienced through your senses. I know you thought what you experienced was real, but it was another illusion I allowed you to experience. It is that grand spiritual awakening you experienced a couple of years back. Finally, everything within your miserable life was finally making sense to you; even through it really didn’t, you made yourself believe it did. Self-deceit is the worse type of deceit there is. This strictly goes against everything a Satanist such as yourself is supposed to believe in. With the circumstance such as they are in your life currently, it can be easy to get lost on your path. Everyone around you wanting or needing your precious attention, just as everyone in your life is demanding some type of task you need to perform for them. I can only imagine just how tedious all of these directions must in fact be for you. I am sure you will eventually find a way to alleviate this tediousness; eventually severing it completely from your life. It is the undying compulsion within you to express yourself from within, which make the others want and need your attention so demandingly. You know the type; when you are available, they will not require your attention. But when you are enraptured within one of your expressions, and do not have time for anyone or anything else; this is when they will do everything within their power to distract you from your life, just so you will focus your time and energy on them instead of your expression. This is the way most of the insecure others live their lives. One should be extremely cautious and on guard at all times, as to whom they allow into their life, and their body energy field. If one allows another into their life without caution, the results of one’s body energy field becoming contaminated by another’s low vibration, could permanently damage and fragment the tonal frequency of one’s body energy field. There will be times when these others will portray themselves to be something they are not, as these times will be frequent and consistent. These types of others will try their hardest to sneak past your defenses, but mostly they will try to sneak past your intellect in order to manipulate your senses and your integrity. The key word here is ‘try’. These others are weak; weak in body, spirit, mind, and in thought, word, and deed. It can be somewhat amusing to watch these others trying to manipulate you, in order to achieve their selfish intentions. I have always found this to be a strange occurrence; how the weak within society usually think themselves to be of the strongest of their kind around. Such as the case of the feeble-minded, as they think themselves to be of the highest intellect.
G.G. Kalfas 