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Inner Sight

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Build yourself up or down; either way you will be making progress. You cannot measure progress through success or failure, as progress is a subjective manifestation within one’s internal maturity. You know, none of it really matters anymore. So, why not let go of it all, and simply allow life to unfold upon you? You can do that, but you can also keep your sanity in a safe place, by keeping it protected. Who am I kidding? You’re right; there is no safe hiding place, where you could keep anything protected, let alone your precious sanity. It’s another one of life’s tricks; a game life will play with you whenever it gets a chance to have fun with your psychology. I know this entry might not make any sense to you at this current point in time. The next time you are having a complete mental breakdown, simply re-read this entry; then it will make complete sense to you. These times do not come around too often, but when they do, they can be somewhat rigorous and deflating. What you will lack in strength, you will compensate with depression, anxiety, and self-loathing. These three mental states can be the best motivators you may ever come across. At first, they will not seem to be such great motivators. It is only when you fully accept and comprehend yourself in an authentic and demeaning way; you will begin to see yourself in the light you were born into. Everyone is born into a specific light radiance. Some are born into a bright glowing radiance, which will blind those around them. For you and I; we were born into a light, which casts a radiance within the darkness of the purest form. This is only for you and I to witness. The others do not and cannot comprehend the capacity which is needed to be contained within them, in order to understand you and I. This is exactly how you and I need life to be. The undeserving lemmings do not deserve to witness the raw beauty, which is contained within our hearts and thoughts. You and I are the only ones who can recognize and see within one another. Our inner sight can be penetrative and devouring. This is perhaps the sole reasoning as to why you and I intimidate the others to the extent we do. They have never had the capacity to understand either one of us, and now you and I know they never will.

EGO

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The longing. The belonging. The symphonic appetite of might versus right. Wrong does not exist when might is starving. Butterfly wings when Nature sings Her songs of goodbyes. Fractured sensations bring about late revelations, of what was always known. The subtle hands of thirsty glands, will pour forth upon one’s stained Life’s sands. The confusion is not a delusion within the realm of substitution, as it is pouring forth the waste and haste from one’s inner contusion. One can feel the essence of Life dripping down from their hand, as the power is thick from within Life’s gland; providing it is being giving a tight enough squeeze. Life will squeeze you at specific times within your Life. This is when you might want to squeeze Life right back. Don’t worry, Life will not take it personally as you always seem to do. Life knows better than that. The human ego always seems to get in the way of one’s Life. Maybe when we stop living through our ego, we will begin to start living Life.

One’s Inner Harmony

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I find it interesting how another will personalize the circumstances and situations within external world, and also personalize the circumstances and situations, which may be occurring within another’s life. When another is undergoing some type of life transition, it is a good idea to observe, but to never get involved. When one personalizes the experiences of another, this denotes a self-centeredness and a self-important closedminded paradigm. Another’s life experience has nothing to do with you. If it did, you would more than likely be experiencing the same circumstances. It is important to release this unhealthy type of self-centered thought process from your body energy field. By personalizing another’s circumstance and experience, you are in actuality drawing that specific type of energy and frequency upon you and your body energy field. The mind is a mental frequency, which can change its vibrational pattern and frequency at any given moment; with or without your permission. Think of your body energy field as a protective armor; keep that in which you do not want to entering it out, and allowing that in which you are in harmony with to absorb onto you. One’s inner harmony is achieved when the frequencies and vibrations within one’s body energy field are working in alignment with one another.

Level of Ascension

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The truths within you, will bear witness to the quality of the character contained within your consciousness. One can only ascend spiritually to the heights of his internal character, which is contained within his consciousness. The infernal traditions contained within one’s consciousness, will only be revealed, dependent upon the level of ascension one’s character has elevated to. Conversely, if one is of low character, and low moral and spiritual growth, the infernal traditions contained within, will more than likely never be revealed to his consciousness. The occult traditions are very specific, of who they share themselves with, as this is how the occult traditions maintain their longevity. There is a deep understanding within consciousness itself, as it only has the capacity to absorb energies, frequencies, and knowledge, in which it has the ability to harmonize with. If energies, frequencies, and knowledge are presented to one’s consciousness, which it does not have the capacity to harmonize with, the consciousness in question, will not have the capacity to understand, nor absorb what is being presented to it. This is where the sayings, “You are not on my level.” or, “We are not on the same level.” actually comes from. This is in reference to the level of ascension one’s consciousness has attained within their life. When one possesses an elevated character, one will more than likely possess an elevated consciousness.

Salvation and Aptitude

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I have stood at the top of many mountains. I have conquered the behemoth’s I stand upon. Many upon many men have conquered only one mountain. They allowed the mountain’s altitude to dwindle their salvation and aptitude; thinking they would never know another mountain’s summit. I know triumph first hand. Knowing of the Left-Hand. I know love first hand. Broken. I have seen the catastrophes played out over and over again. They could never make me blink. But you. Only you. You brought me to my knees. You desperately searched your path, as to why I could never be. Not once searching your path, as to how I could be. Another hidden movement within the realms of isolation. Melancholic moments memorized momentarily. Many of these seductions have been obliterated, during your synthetic relapses. A seductress with slit wrists. Mating pigeons. Broken glasses. Black rats. Dreams of a reckoning. Losing your money over honey. Pushing love away to maintain an extended vacation stay. Taking love straight down your throat. Hoping it will find the poor life choices and decisions; cutting them directly from your speech. Broken words and shallow incantations; fulfilling your erotic daydreamed hallucinations. I am your reality check. Another disposition you will come to regret. I am the mirror you refuse to look into. The one you tried to shatter into a million pieces. I will cut through you every time; shattering the truth right before your eyes. Slicing the rot away from your words. Force feeding your lies right back into you. I will use your words along with my might, to fist fuck your throat down into your stomach. I know you cannot make up your own mind. This is why you are lost on your precious spiritual path. You are a poor excuse for a spiritual awakening. You will eventually find your way. A way back to exactly where it is you have come from. If you allow the material to control and reside over the spiritual. Everything contained within you lies. Your lies are more honest than your heart. Your lies are the most honest part of your being. I have come across many charlatans such as yourself throughout this life, but none who possess your special type of vulgar finessing. This is your special quality. The most high and honest quality you possess. Who taught you such electrifying and deceitful ways? You have cultivated these qualities into such a refined artform. Drastic measures for drastic treasures. There will never be any hope of you finding a soul ritual.

The Truth?

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There is one aspect, which does in fact have the capacity to alter one’s internal nature, and this aspect is survival. Given the circumstances and the events which may arise within one’s life, in order for them to enter into survival mode; there is no type of measurement available, in which to understand the impact this may have upon their consciousness, and their inner nature contained within their heart’s desire. When considering the short-term and long-term ramifications of one entering into survival mode for an extended period of time, will definitely leave one with a manipulated and deformed consciousness and inner nature. Is it at all possible for one to return to their previous way of living life, prior to their consciousness and inner nature becoming manipulated and deformed? I doubt it very much. I very much doubt anyone who experiences any type of external manipulation and deformity within their consciousness and inner nature, by being induced into survival mode by any type of external imposition, would ever have a chance of living the same type of life as they did prior to entering survival mode.

There are many truths hidden within one’s consciousness and inner nature, which will be revealed onto them, once they have entered into the sublevels, which will arise when one feels extreme impositions from the external world. It is the type of external imposition, which will make the lining on the inside of one’s stomach want to crawl away. Each truth is unique within each individual, as there are no two truths which will ever be the same. The sublevels, these are the cracks and crevasses in between one’s consciousness and inner nature, which if not careful, one may fall in and become stuck within their own creation of what they consider Hell to be. I have witnessed it so many times with the others, as I myself have experienced this type of alternate reality. These sublevels, are in fact the worst type of experience one could ever endure mentally and/or emotionally within their consciousness and inner nature. It can be extraordinarily difficult returning to yourself, when coming back from being stuck within the many numerous sublevels within your consciousness and inner nature. This experience will leave a permanent scar, a permanent gash upon your soul, and the Æons, which will contain the rest of your incarnations until eternity. If one comes to find they are in possession of an irrational phobia, which makes absolutely no sense to them; it is more than likely their soul has been scared within a previous incarnation, which has in fact created the irrational phobia(s) one is experiencing within this life. One’s lifetime is simply not long enough for one to completely comprehend themselves, or their consciousness and inner nature for that matter. It will take an adept many lifetimes, to grasp the depth contained within their consciousness and inner nature. For one to fully comprehend and understand their consciousness and inner nature within one lifetime, is not realistic. Yes, one may in fact possess a great understanding within the light and darkness contained within themselves, their consciousness, and inner nature; although, to conquer one’s self within one lifecycle is not exactly how one’s lifecycle works.

The truth? There is not an absolute truth, which will generically fit everyone’s life paradigm, as this simply does not exist, nor is it realistic. There are many universal truths, which exist deep within one’s consciousness, as these conscious truths are the same for each conscious experience contained within the Infernal Consciousness. The way one may experience their life is through the paradigms of their consciousness and their inner nature. Yet, there are other factors, which will be induced upon one’s consciousness and inner nature by the external world. These factors, are the unforeseen variables one may or may not experience within the external realm. One’s consciousness and inner nature will experience many adaptations within their lifecycle, as there are too many factors and variables at play, which might affect their way of life. It is important for the individual to care and be responsible for their consciousness and inner nature within this lifetime, as this is all you will have, in order to get you through life.