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A Wide Distance

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There is a spot within my heart, which will remain hollow and empty. The unknowing spot. The deep, hollow, empty, sinking spot. The unknowing spot, which birthed the plentiful knots and pains throughout my life. The unknowing spot, which birthed the inner convulsions, conversations, and contusions of self-hatred; spawning the actions of self-seeking. It seems I may have been born with it, or perhaps it was hollowed out early on in my life. I have sought to fill this spot with love throughout my entire lifetime; never finding a way to create any type of fulfillment within it. There is a living cycle within me; a seemingly never-ending cycle, which created a whirlpool of devastation within, and throughout my lifetime. I have opened myself wide, in hopes of another heart to embrace mine. I find there is no embrace, as I only hear a sigh, and see a turned back facing me. A wide distance; allowing me to see the true heart of another. This is how I have come to develop; unknowingly turning myself into the irony within my life: lusted after by many, loved by none. I cannot open myself up anymore, yet this is all my heart wants to do. My heart needs to be seen within the sunlight of the gods. My heart yearns to be heard within the ears of the angels; singing the Sun to sleep, awakening the Moon within a delicate aria. There are many exposures, which will allow you to sing within your lifetime. There are none so sweet and enchanting, as the exposure of your pure and gifted heart; allowing itself to sing, and to be known. The search within the journey of finding a heart like your own, will seem utterly hopeless: it very well might be. The only purpose in living life, is to give and receive love. When you live throughout your lifetime seeking this purpose and never finding it, this has the capacity to leave you feeling empty and frail, down deep into the depths of your soul. There are no limits to the emptiness, and the unfulfilling exposures, your soul and your heart will experience, during these transitional durations within your lifetime. Your frail and empty life may seem pointless and meaningless, within these overexposed times.

The Dream Merchant

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Dreams can carry one from one day to the next. Sometimes, one’s dreams are all they may have to keep them going, to keep them alive for one more day on this Earth; only to see if today will be the day their dreams come true. One carries their dreams close to them, near and dear within their heart’s desire. The only reason I am still here is to see if I can fulfill just one of my dreams while I am alive within this mortal realm. I have given up, or you could really look at it as letting go, of many of the dreams I once had, as I no longer have any interest in fulfilling any of them. So, I simply released them from my body energy field and my consciousness. Yes, it is absolutely possible for one to transcend and evolve from the dreams they once possessed. When one evolves within their protected consciousness, so too does the way one lives their life; therefore, the dreams they once possessed and held closely to themselves within their heart’s desire, dissipate back to from where they once came. One can never know the identity of a dream within their consciousness, all one has the capacity to understand is that dream within them longs to be heard, and demands to live life on its own within this mortal realm. I have lost count of the number of dreams, which have either fled from, or have died within my heart’s desire. Sometimes, I think these dreams die within my, because it has taken me too long to fulfill these dreams, or I am not able to fulfill these dreams. It feels as though the dreams know exactly what is going on within my heart, and they either commit suicide, knowing they will never be fulfilled, or they simply leave to go to another’s heart’s desire, in order to become lived and fulfilled. When one possesses a dream within their heart’s desire, that dream chose to exist and live within them. If the dream exists within you, then you have the full capacity to fulfill the dreams need to be given life, and the ability to fulfill the longing for breath contained within your heart’s desire. Dreams are the most important part of being alive, as they keep us moving forward within life, when we feel as though we are falling behind. The dreams we have contained within our heart’s desire, are just as important and necessary as the air we breathe; we cannot live without either one. Within your life, somewhere along your journey, you possess a moment of clarity within your life. This moment will contain your life’s purpose and meaning. This moment will truly allow you to see where it is exactly you have been, and where it is exactly you are going. You will be awakened to all of the hidden hopes and dreams which are contained within your heart’s desire, but never knew they existed. You will now come to possess a fluent and profound understanding of yourself, in ways you previously have not. A metamorphosis will also take place within your life. Once you awaken from your chrysalis, you will not recognize your old life, as you will no be ready to create a new way of living for yourself. You will now soar within the skies and clouds of your new life; leaving behind the wreckage, trauma, and hatefulness contained within the others and the external world. You will now be living your new life freely within yourself, and within the kind warm loving radiance of the Sun’s light, and of Mother Nature’s arms.