Tag: nature

The Best Thing for You

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I know there is more you wish you could do, but haven’t you already done enough? There is so much you have tainted within me, just from wanting to help. I know you think you can help, but if you could; would I be dying right now? Right now, the best thing for you to do, is to let the dying die. Allow nature to take its course; allow the death to become a rebirth. Too many people try to inflict their control over the uncontrollable, as this is probably why they participate in such ridiculous activities. Too much control has already been inflicted, as this is why the rebirth must be initiated. A simple trade: a death for a life. A simple trade worth living and dying through.

Intangible Clouds

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I have been trying to get it back; everything I lost, threw away, gave away, or mishandled. I have been trying to get it back; all of it, every single piece of it. The physical items, the memories, the emotions, that internal excitement I was consumed within, during the discovery of something new. I no longer experience newness, or any type of excitement whatsoever, as this is part of the lifecycle. Those intangible clouds you want to hold on to, as one day you come to the realization they will never exist as a material tangibility. They were once within my hands, no longer a substance which can be held within the palms, but only contained within the thoughts of the mind. These intangibles are all around me; swimming deeply within my heart. It is not; you do not know what you have until it is gone. It is more of; you did not know the uniqueness of who you were, as you were getting rid of it. Once a part of yourself leaves, you will never get it back; it is forever gone. The rigidity in which you ceased caring, is the same rigidity you will constantly feel within your heart, when these incorporeal memories and ideologies, come flooding back from within. Look upon yourself, and understand for what purpose were these things expelled from your life. You made a conscious effort, and took action to release these things from your life. There was a definite reasoning for it at the time, a reasoning which compelled you to take extreme action to release. There is no point in looking back, acting back, seeking back, or trying to remember any of it. They are now gone; allow them to be free, and to live on their own. Transitions come and go, as transitions will continue to slide themselves through you for the rest of your life. Allow the rest of your life to be natural, honest, delicate, and forthcoming. Do not hinder your growth by swimming in the memories of a past life, as this self-defeating action will only lead you to the land of nowhere. Nowhere is the abyss of nonexistence. Nowhere is the land of dead words, as it is also the residence of where the actions of the others live. This is where the heart lives in confinement; chained within the yesterdays, whys, and all of the should haves. Nowhere is where all the blood of every broken word dries up; leaving the mouth scabbed, crusty, and vengeful. Nowhere is when it happened; not enough knowledge to know any better, as better could not have existed within one’s self. Leave wanting it all back alone; allow life to naturally come back to you. It will eventually all come back, once you are ready for it to do so.

It is Your Sole (Soul) Responsibility

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Life will leave you behind if you don’t keep up with it. It will leave you so far behind, you might never be able to catch up to it. Yet, there is hope! You don’t need to catch up to it, if you are in fact starting a new life; completely separate from the life which left you behind. That’s all you need to turn a frown upside down. The ones you thought would care don’t, and the ones who never cared still don’t: third verse same as the first. No one needs to care, as it is not their responsibility to do so. Only you need to care about yourself, as this is the greatest gift you could ever possess. It is your sole (soul) responsibility to care for yourself, to truly understand what self-reliance means within the depths of your internal nature. You are your gift, and fuck everything and everyone else.

A Wide Distance

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There is a spot within my heart, which will remain hollow and empty. The unknowing spot. The deep, hollow, empty, sinking spot. The unknowing spot, which birthed the plentiful knots and pains throughout my life. The unknowing spot, which birthed the inner convulsions, conversations, and contusions of self-hatred; spawning the actions of self-seeking. It seems I may have been born with it, or perhaps it was hollowed out early on in my life. I have sought to fill this spot with love throughout my entire lifetime; never finding a way to create any type of fulfillment within it. There is a living cycle within me; a seemingly never-ending cycle, which created a whirlpool of devastation within, and throughout my lifetime. I have opened myself wide, in hopes of another heart to embrace mine. I find there is no embrace, as I only hear a sigh, and see a turned back facing me. A wide distance; allowing me to see the true heart of another. This is how I have come to develop; unknowingly turning myself into the irony within my life: lusted after by many, loved by none. I cannot open myself up anymore, yet this is all my heart wants to do. My heart needs to be seen within the sunlight of the gods. My heart yearns to be heard within the ears of the angels; singing the Sun to sleep, awakening the Moon within a delicate aria. There are many exposures, which will allow you to sing within your lifetime. There are none so sweet and enchanting, as the exposure of your pure and gifted heart; allowing itself to sing, and to be known. The search within the journey of finding a heart like your own, will seem utterly hopeless: it very well might be. The only purpose in living life, is to give and receive love. When you live throughout your lifetime seeking this purpose and never finding it, this has the capacity to leave you feeling empty and frail, down deep into the depths of your soul. There are no limits to the emptiness, and the unfulfilling exposures, your soul and your heart will experience, during these transitional durations within your lifetime. Your frail and empty life may seem pointless and meaningless, within these overexposed times.

The Truth?

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There is one aspect, which does in fact have the capacity to alter one’s internal nature, and this aspect is survival. Given the circumstances and the events which may arise within one’s life, in order for them to enter into survival mode; there is no type of measurement available, in which to understand the impact this may have upon their consciousness, and their inner nature contained within their heart’s desire. When considering the short-term and long-term ramifications of one entering into survival mode for an extended period of time, will definitely leave one with a manipulated and deformed consciousness and inner nature. Is it at all possible for one to return to their previous way of living life, prior to their consciousness and inner nature becoming manipulated and deformed? I doubt it very much. I very much doubt anyone who experiences any type of external manipulation and deformity within their consciousness and inner nature, by being induced into survival mode by any type of external imposition, would ever have a chance of living the same type of life as they did prior to entering survival mode.

There are many truths hidden within one’s consciousness and inner nature, which will be revealed onto them, once they have entered into the sublevels, which will arise when one feels extreme impositions from the external world. It is the type of external imposition, which will make the lining on the inside of one’s stomach want to crawl away. Each truth is unique within each individual, as there are no two truths which will ever be the same. The sublevels, these are the cracks and crevasses in between one’s consciousness and inner nature, which if not careful, one may fall in and become stuck within their own creation of what they consider Hell to be. I have witnessed it so many times with the others, as I myself have experienced this type of alternate reality. These sublevels, are in fact the worst type of experience one could ever endure mentally and/or emotionally within their consciousness and inner nature. It can be extraordinarily difficult returning to yourself, when coming back from being stuck within the many numerous sublevels within your consciousness and inner nature. This experience will leave a permanent scar, a permanent gash upon your soul, and the Æons, which will contain the rest of your incarnations until eternity. If one comes to find they are in possession of an irrational phobia, which makes absolutely no sense to them; it is more than likely their soul has been scared within a previous incarnation, which has in fact created the irrational phobia(s) one is experiencing within this life. One’s lifetime is simply not long enough for one to completely comprehend themselves, or their consciousness and inner nature for that matter. It will take an adept many lifetimes, to grasp the depth contained within their consciousness and inner nature. For one to fully comprehend and understand their consciousness and inner nature within one lifetime, is not realistic. Yes, one may in fact possess a great understanding within the light and darkness contained within themselves, their consciousness, and inner nature; although, to conquer one’s self within one lifecycle is not exactly how one’s lifecycle works.

The truth? There is not an absolute truth, which will generically fit everyone’s life paradigm, as this simply does not exist, nor is it realistic. There are many universal truths, which exist deep within one’s consciousness, as these conscious truths are the same for each conscious experience contained within the Infernal Consciousness. The way one may experience their life is through the paradigms of their consciousness and their inner nature. Yet, there are other factors, which will be induced upon one’s consciousness and inner nature by the external world. These factors, are the unforeseen variables one may or may not experience within the external realm. One’s consciousness and inner nature will experience many adaptations within their lifecycle, as there are too many factors and variables at play, which might affect their way of life. It is important for the individual to care and be responsible for their consciousness and inner nature within this lifetime, as this is all you will have, in order to get you through life.