Searching for the unsearchable. I have been looking around all of these years for you, and I am still unable to find you. Why are you deliberately hiding yourself from me? I will find you very soon, probably sooner than what you are expecting. But do not expect too much from me, I will only give you what I feel you deserve to have: pain. I will present this great gift before you, once I find out exactly where it is you are hiding. Don’t worry, you will never hear or see me coming. I will sneak into your life just as you did with mine. I will have your pain placed in a pretty, bow-tied box; quietly and patiently waiting for you upon your doorstep. Pain is the greatest gift anyone could give, as pain is the truest of all healing gifts; allowing one to thoroughly learn about themselves. I have known of this gift my entire life, as it was given to me at such an early age. Now, I will share it with you; every single last bit of it. I will give, and give, and give to you; until there is no more left within me to give. This will be the greatest blessing you will ever know. The gods do not give blessings such as the one I am giving to you. It will solely belong to you, as you will now have ownership of this great gift. Do not worry if you do not know how to use it at first; it will come with instructions:
1) Use daily every 6 hours.
2) Share with friends and loved ones.
3) Repeat for the rest of your life.
4) Do not forget to follow these instructions.
You see, it is easy and user friendly. Do not get emotional and anxious on me now. It might seem tedious and overwhelming at first, but you will get the hang of it; I promise. Why am I being so generous by giving you this amazing, life changing gift? Well, it is because I care very deeply for you, and would like for you to one day see yourself as I see you. It is one of life’s amazingly demented jokes on us humans; seeing ourselves differently as to how the others see us. We often see ourselves within a much darker light, than what others use to see us with, or vice versa. This is a common mistake we will sometimes make, as we explore through our lives; correcting the mistakes of our past. This is what most of our life transitions into: a correction in process. There is no need to be so hard on yourself; this is the whole reason as to why, I am giving you this wonderful gift. Over time, you will thoroughly learn how to use this gift properly, in the right way, with every single person you will ever come into contact with. It is important to keep this gift in mind, as you definitely do not want to share it with just anyone. Besides, it is special, and specialness is only for the select few. You really do not want to end up like one of those weak-minded bastards, who share their gift with random strangers at the laundromat or the grocery store. This type of behavior is socially unacceptable, and frankly I find it to be rather obnoxious. Keep your secrets and your gift safe, and when the time is right, the person whom you are supposed to share your gift with will reveal themselves to you; just as you revealed yourself to me.
G.G. Kalfas 