Nestled deeply underneath the crusted layers. Tightly woven in between the soft tissue. Covering the organism’s exoskeleton. Devouring itself from the inside out. Thoroughly maintaining equilibrium. Maintaining true authenticity. It keeps me safe at night. Warm. Protected. Secure. Hiding away from the world. Keeping my authenticity safely hidden. My secret endeavor. My secret life’s work. I am invisible. No one can find me. No one will ever be able to find me. Hiding in plain sight. I need to hide myself more often. I desperately need to protect myself away from those thoughts. All I want is to be left alone and loved at the same time. I want to hide myself away and be seen all at the same time. I am fucked up in this curious way. I will tightly bind and nestle myself into my own womb. My secret chrysalis. I will transform into what I was meant to be. Strong. The urge to KILL burdens my shoulders. If I was given the opportunity to get away with it. There would be no hesitation. NONE. This is why I hide myself away. I know I would thoroughly enjoy it. I would cum all over myself. This is why I hide myself away from the world. I enjoy the smell of necrosis. How many people do you know who could admit that? I hide myself in the deepest and darkest corners of my room. I want to shrink myself, so I can hide more efficiently. Delicately. Compartmentalized efficiency. Necrotic compartmentalized efficiency disorder. I want to be invisible to myself. I will never have to see myself ever again. Each time I look into the mirror I look different. Slightly unrecognizable. I am afraid one day a stranger will appear in front of me. I will be the stranger I see in the mirror. A pleasant surprise. A chance to meet new people. A chance to meet myself. Another part of me. The real me. A hidden part of me. Or simply another delusion contained within me. Is there a difference? I am the difference. The difference between the surface and the subterranean. All of the internal personalities I have become acquainted with during the time I have spent here. Friends for life. Best friends forever. Long lost friends. A passionate embrace within the nothingness. A varied necrotic compartmentalized deficiency disorder. I will keep me safe and protected from myself, and from this necrotic world I currently inhabit. The defiled world I seem to thrive in. I am my only hope. I hope I can count on myself. I better make myself count. This is the only hope I have for any type of mental peace. Who am I kidding? You?
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Your Inner Knowing
There is an inner knowing, which is lurking quietly inside of you. This inner knowing is so quiet, one may never know of its existence. If you pay close attention to your external environment, you can see your inner knowing living within everything and everyone around you. I find it interesting, as to how one is constantly surrounded by their inner knowing. It can be a heavy and weighted bombardment of one’s life’s decisions and choices, literally staring back at them. How does this make you feel? How is it you have sought the golden nectar of life’s elixir, yet you cannot recognize yourself within life’s mirror? The tricks one’s mind and ego plays upon one’s consciousness, without a doubt knows no bounds. This is how a psychosis is birthed within the eyes and mind of the beholder. If you allow the confusion and turmoil of the external world to breed itself into your consciousness, then you have allowed yourself to surrender your free will within life’s external atrocities. This is not your life’s purpose, nor is it the reason you were birthed upon this realm. Be your inner strength, and move forward within your internal and external life; your very life might just depend upon it. The only salvation within this realm, is the salvation of your inner knowing.
Create Your Own Salvation
What is it exactly, which seems normal to you? Your scattered thoughts? Your mumbled words? The short breaths you seem to choke upon, on a daily basis? No; none of this would be considered normal. Hell, you and I have always been far removed from anything, which would be considered normal. This is why you must create your own salvation within your very own thought process. The others, who are very much basic within their thoughts, words, and deeds, all seem to be oozing propaganda from their thoughts. I have to wipe it off from my boots most of the time when I walk past them. This is why I try not to walk past them. This is why I have nothing to do with them. This is why I have never trusted them. How can one trust, that in which will betray themselves, let alone betray another within the blink of a thought? This is why distance is so important. Distance allows one to see the forest and the trees at the same time. Distance allows one to maintain the integrity of their thought process. Distance is what allows you and I to maintain our heritage within the corruption of another’s distortion. I have seen it so many times; false ideologies being indoctrinated upon the weak-minded. These weak-minded sheeple have absolutely no idea what they are getting themselves into, or out of. They seem to enjoy, and take pride in swimming in the cesspool of diseased lies. You and I know better than to fall or believe any of the nonsense, which is spewed from the lips and tongue of the control machine. If one does not know what to think, another will happily provide their thoughts for them, as these thoughts are contained within the world’s mirror for life’s inhabitants to choke upon.
The Most Pure
The love of one’s self, the acceptance of one’s inner light and inner darkness, the truthful acknowledgement of who, how, and what you are within your inner nature; this is the truest, most pure, and the only important kind of love, which can ever exist within one’s life. If you do not have an honest and truthful acceptance of your inner nature, down to the depths of your inner core; you will never find anything within this life, which will allow you to find any type of acceptance or contentment within yourself. No matter how many different distractions within your life you take part in; nothing will cease the tightening of the inner knot within your chest, which knows all of your masks, inner truths, secrets, and lies.
The Greatest Strength
The equalization of past thoughts has now subsided within the reality of your current sights. Nothing ends or begins, as you are now able to witness how it has always existed. This is the internal awakening within your psyche, which you have long been waiting for. You are now able to see the illusions and false realities right before you. The lies the external world propagates on a continuous basis, no longer hold any type of importance for you within your newly realized sights. You are now fully able to understand how the external realm has been built upon lies and bullshit this entire time. The only difference now is that you are able to acknowledge it for what it truly is: nonsense. The sole purpose of the external realm, is to fill your psyche with poison, as this poison will maintain a permanent imbalance within your psychological equilibrium. Never allow the external realities of another to be imposed or impressed upon your way of life. Strength comes in many different forms, yet the strength which arises and evolves from defending one’s self from the external realm’s psychic vampires- is quite literally the greatest strength a true individual will ever possess.
Internal Consciousness
To obtain purity within one’s essence, requires the fundamental understanding of being true to who and how you are within your internal nature. The essence contained within your internal being, is an internal representation of one’s external manifestations. The essence of who and what one is, could also be considered as the quality of one’s character. There are those who within their essence, possess a high quality of character; conversely, there are others who possess a substantially low quality of character. Only those who possess a high quality of character, will achieve ascension within their internal consciousness. One’s essence, is detrimental to their internal ascension. If one lives their life within the realms of theft, dishonesty, and coercion; they will maintain a definite lowered vibrational frequency within their essence, as they will not possess the internal vibrational frequencies needed, in order to ascend within their internal consciousness. For one to possess a substantially low quality of character within their internal essence, will leave one to live a defilingly base existence. It is important to maintain one’s distance, when coming into contact with these types of lowered essence others, who exist with the external realm. Purity exists within every level of one’s internal being. Purity is the core divination within one’s internal essence, as it will focus one’s attention upon specific sights within their life. One’s internal and external paradigm, is seen through the lenses of one’s internal consciousness, and the purity of one’s internal essence.
