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VERNAL FIRE PRESS

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VERNAL FIRE PRESS is an independent publishing house based in Houston, Texas. We were birthed out of the fires of necessity, to reveal the unseen ideologies of our spiritual paths. Our genres deal with the darker sides of life, as well as the hidden aspects of our personal human existence.

​Within each and every one of us; lives a voice, an expression, a longing to seek out the specific thoughts, ideologies, and the modalities of the expression within our hearts. There is a specific underlying purpose behind the ideologies and philosophies of VERNAL FIRE PRESS. Our philosophy and our purpose, is to allow the seeking of internal and external explorations to be known and to be fully explored. Our brand of ideologies and philosophies are not meant, nor are they designed for the masses; nor are they designed for the weak minded. We are designated for the select few; as you will never find the select few, integrating themselves among the mindless pedestrians, who aimlessly meander through their lives. The individual, the true individual, knows the absolute truth of themselves, and will never conform to another’s ideologies or beliefs.

​We live our lives within ourselves; within the mirror of our intents, and within the mirror of our expressions and diverse modalities.

Life’s Beautiful Illusion

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Numbness. An aggressive circumstance. A circumcision of the mind’s eye. Another lost cause. Another day directionless. Another life without effectiveness. Too many to count. Mistakes on repeat. A broken record. You and I, we never belonged here. We were mean for so much more, yet the junkyard seemed to trap us within its rusted gates. Another man’s trash is another man’s treasure. But what was it exactly that you and I treasured? Peace of mind? Security? Hope? None of those ideologies have ever existed, let a lone exist within our psyches. It’s a common human error; the neediness of the others. Why is it people think it’s alright to core-dump all of their emotional nonsense upon you and I? I’m pretty sure it is because they are selfish, self-centered weak fucks, as most of the others usually are. It’s always been this way; the weak leaning on the strong, in order to survive life itself. It is you and I who are stuck in this illusion. It is you and I, who are in fact life’s beautiful illusion.

The Great Equalizer

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In truth, death is the great equalizer. In death, friendship ceases to be relevant. Possibly the same thing could also be said about friendship within one’s life. Throughout my lifetime, I have often wondered why I would come across others whom I have a connection with, just to experience this connection within a predetermined period of time, and then simply watch this connection fizzle out before me. It might seem irrelevant to you, but I do find this predetermined period of time to be fascinating to observe. This period of time suggests to me that this connection is simply transitory, as the connection was there to help you through some sort of transition you were experiencing within your life’s progression. It’s funny how life will seem to bring others into your life, even though you may feel as though there is no need for them to be there. Is there really a need for any of us to be there or here? Probably not, yet if you and I are still here, there must be some type of purpose we have yet to fulfill.

A Lie You Could Never Deny

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It has now ended. All of this without having a beginning. No understanding. For what it was created for. I could see the despairing look within your eyes. Distant and ever-glaring. Your skeleton kisses. Numb, lacking conviction. There was no feeling or emotion put into any one of them. A routine you know all too well. I was just another. A man from a mother. A man you felt needed to know the power of your rejection. A man who was going to show you a deep internal infection. It was not that powerful. As the stories would allow you to believe. I have dealt with atrocities such as yourself for most of my life. One of my avid pastimes. You can provide the heartbreaking part. I will provide the breaking part. Your inner sights have been blinded; never seeing the created damage of your life. You are in fact the damaged damage. The internal and external defamation of solicited ideologies. You are the stagnation of misinterpreted philosophies. Hollow body. Life’s commodity. Everything and everyone are for sale. Sale of the century. Sale of impiety. The sale of living in betrayal. Liquidating your morals and standards. Pennies on the dollar. Auctioning your standards off to the highest bidder. You are extraordinarily protective of your lost nature. I have never held you responsible for yourself. Many of the sheeple do not know they have the power to be responsible for themselves. I know you were not always this way. I knew you before you started your exploitation expedition. You took a couple of wrong turns. Never caring to get right with yourself. This is why you have harvested the shattered memories within your burnt garden of lies. This is what created your landscape of disillusionment. There is nothing to reach out to within your psyche. There is no communication within sight. Just the shallow end of your cesspool, which may need a little bit more chlorine. Pissing in the pool. You described yourself as deep, honest, and spiritual. It was a lie you could never deny. I have caught you in many of these, many of times. I have dealt with enough lies within my life. I can smell the lies before the mouth putrefies the air with their syllables. I will allow you to maintain the belief of you being strong. You are as strong, as steel is weak.  You will never again know my thoughts. I will give you exactly what you have given to me. Nothing.

The Ripping Departure

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It is within times such as these, when everyone around you will start to doubt your abilities, motivations, intentions, and just doubt you as a whole. There will be no support from anyone around you, and if there is, they will throw all of your failures and liabilities straight in your face. Afterwards, they will claim they didn’t mean to do it, but you know they knew exactly what they were doing. They think they know what is best for you, yet they do not know what is best for themselves. The world will always close in on you. This is why it is important to keep you distance from the others, and the external world around you. No one will ever have your best interests at hand, as you must always travel throughout the external societal world with yours clenched; ready to strike anyone down at any given moment. One must maintain extreme prejudice and protection within their body energy field, when it concerns the external world. When does survival not concern the external world? I have not lived a day within this lifetime, when I was not under attack by some type of external force or circumstance. These externals can be somewhat impulsive at times; coming for you, your life, but mostly for your very soul. The sights projected from within their beady little eyes, their perception sees you as being indebted to them. This is their perception, the insecure mental state they constantly and thoroughly live within. You may feel stuck with them at time, as these types of people will constantly keep showing up on your life’s path. They are all distractions, nothing more. Do not allow these feeble-minded sheeple to distract you from anything while you make your way down your life’s path. It may feel at times that the wings to fly away from your life’s troubles and problems have been ripped straight from your back; leaving you defenseless and motionless. You may in fact be left feeling mentally, emotionally, or even physically paralyzed from the ripping departure of what you may feel is a defense mechanism of the ability to escape any situation or circumstance you may want and/or need to flee. There is never a need to escape, as you possess the inner strength within your body energy field, to handle any type of situation which may be presented before you. You never needed wings to fly, all you ever needed to change your circumstances is contained within you. It is your mind.

When They Core Dump On You

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It is plainly obvious when one of your “friends” is seeking counseling or is in treatment, but has not acknowledge this “treatment” to you. The most blatant, telling sign of this “treatment” is when this supposed friend will core dump all of their thoughts, feelings, and emotions upon you, as though you are their therapist; or as I like to call it, a “treatment specialist”. What makes this “friend” think it is acceptable to energetically impose their life’s problems onto you, without your permission? You see, it has become a habit for this person, as their self-centeredness has full control. It is easy to recognize how this “friend” is really not a friend, but more of an albatross, a noose-designed anchor necklace, which they feel you should proudly wear around your neck, with enthusiasm of course. Their life is horrible, painful, and outright miserable. It can be extraordinarily challenging when your Amazon package does not arrive on time, or when you are having problems deciding which country in Europe to visit on your summer vacation with your family. Could you imagine having to deal with these types of problems on a daily basis? I truly do not know how they get through it… But, my all-time favorite, is when these albatrosses complain about their children, and how undisciplined they are. These pathetic excuses for parents, do not realize they are the root cause of their delinquent children’s behavior. I find it amusing how grown adults, cannot or refuse to, acknowledge the truth within themselves. So, why do these albatrosses feel entitled to core dump their life’s problems onto you without hesitation? It is only because they do not have the strength within themselves to take charge of themselves, or their environment. In their mind, responsibility is not something they feel they should be responsible for. They should download the responsibility app to their smart device. Oh, I forgot… there is not an app for that.