A delicate homicidal device. The kind which tortures you from the inside out. The kind which creates realities you never knew could exist within your past, and will never exist within your future. It is a side effect of living life; being delusional while trying to understand the secret meanings within the strange occurrences contained within life. The types of meanings, hidden within secret and sacred symbolism, which the Universe surprises you with at very specific moments within your life. I have experienced these types of moments all throughout my lifetime, as they have been harbingers of occurrences to come. Sometimes, I will see the eagles flying high in the sky over me. There have been times, when I have seen anywhere from, one to five eagles flying together at the same time. When I see the eagles flying high in the sky over me, this is when I experience a deep, lonely sadness within my heart. Seeing the eagles, denotes there will be peace and uplifting horizons before me. All I need to do is maintain my course; getting through what I am currently experiencing, and all will become right again within my life. This has always been the case after I see the eagles flying high in the sky over me. With robins, I associate them with love. The Universe speaks to me through the robins. When I start thinking about, and wanting love in my life, this is when I begin to see the robins. I never see robins on a consistent basis, I only see them when love is about to arrive into my life. It may not necessarily be of the true type of love, a soul type of love, or even a lasting type of love. The love I receive is usually of the passing kind. I know the robins will eventually send the real kind, the permanent kind of love into my life. Or quite possibly, the robins might be fucking with me. I do not think they are, but you never know. It is important to never reject love when it comes into your life, no matter what type or form it may appear in. Love will wear many different disguises, just as she always has. Our egos, this is what will reject love. The judgement within your glance, is the same judgement glancing back at you. This is the reflected image within the mirror, staring back at you. This image is love. Love will always make an appearance in your life, but not necessarily in the form we personally requested for it to be in. As though the human ego knows more about love than the Universe does.
Tag: dark poetry
Life in 2022
Technology has allowed the weak to act and appear strong. Flaccid spine upright. Penny-pinching talons. Ignorant verbal combativeness. Non-thinking regurgitative words propelled by a hexagram. There is a reason you will never be discovered. You. Your infected soul defecates on those surrounding it. No use to no one. My words are nothing compared to the stench between your ears. Projecting the inner fears of your life onto others. A disgusting habit you picked up in the flesh trade. This trade allowed you to become what you now are. You traded your soul for penny pinching talons. A trade you indulged and excelled in. Your life is now a trade of something for nothing. Something is what you are. Nothing is what exists within you.
A Real Memento Mori
I use this life as a form of treatment. Everything and everyone surrounding you and I is a resource. Resources are meant to be used for our healings. It is important to recognize the catalysts within these resourceful healings. A need. A longing. A begging from someone wanting you to release them from their pain. I will use you as a specific form of treatment. Just as I have used so many others. The humans enjoy being used. This is their purpose within their mundane lives. Humans are to be used in every way imaginable. They are always begging me. Wanting to be the treatment I am seeking. A resource. A restraint. This is what allows the humans to feel purposeful. Being used for something, especially a treatment. The humans love to be treated less than. If they did not love it so much, they would never tolerate it. It is a rare occasion when I use someone else for a healing. I do not consider myself a psychic vampire. I consider myself a real vampire. The kind that will compel you; emptying your body of its vital essence. It can get messy. It always gets messy. Make accommodations. You will be my resourceful healing. Just for now. Tonight. When I am around. I will be with you soon enough. Draining a new life straight out of you. Creating a new life for you and I. Draining and drowning you. From within. From underneath. I am the real kind of pain. The kind which buries itself within your thoughts; crushing you and gushing you from the inside out. A real memento mori.
Life’s Gift
Searching for the unsearchable. I have been looking around all of these years for you, and I am still unable to find you. Why are you deliberately hiding yourself from me? I will find you very soon, probably sooner than what you are expecting. But do not expect too much from me, I will only give you what I feel you deserve to have: pain. I will present this great gift before you, once I find out exactly where it is you are hiding. Don’t worry, you will never hear or see me coming. I will sneak into your life just as you did with mine. I will have your pain placed in a pretty, bow-tied box; quietly and patiently waiting for you upon your doorstep. Pain is the greatest gift anyone could give, as pain is the truest of all healing gifts; allowing one to thoroughly learn about themselves. I have known of this gift my entire life, as it was given to me at such an early age. Now, I will share it with you; every single last bit of it. I will give, and give, and give to you; until there is no more left within me to give. This will be the greatest blessing you will ever know. The gods do not give blessings such as the one I am giving to you. It will solely belong to you, as you will now have ownership of this great gift. Do not worry if you do not know how to use it at first; it will come with instructions:
1) Use daily every 6 hours.
2) Share with friends and loved ones.
3) Repeat for the rest of your life.
4) Do not forget to follow these instructions.
You see, it is easy and user friendly. Do not get emotional and anxious on me now. It might seem tedious and overwhelming at first, but you will get the hang of it; I promise. Why am I being so generous by giving you this amazing, life changing gift? Well, it is because I care very deeply for you, and would like for you to one day see yourself as I see you. It is one of life’s amazingly demented jokes on us humans; seeing ourselves differently as to how the others see us. We often see ourselves within a much darker light, than what others use to see us with, or vice versa. This is a common mistake we will sometimes make, as we explore through our lives; correcting the mistakes of our past. This is what most of our life transitions into: a correction in process. There is no need to be so hard on yourself; this is the whole reason as to why, I am giving you this wonderful gift. Over time, you will thoroughly learn how to use this gift properly, in the right way, with every single person you will ever come into contact with. It is important to keep this gift in mind, as you definitely do not want to share it with just anyone. Besides, it is special, and specialness is only for the select few. You really do not want to end up like one of those weak-minded bastards, who share their gift with random strangers at the laundromat or the grocery store. This type of behavior is socially unacceptable, and frankly I find it to be rather obnoxious. Keep your secrets and your gift safe, and when the time is right, the person whom you are supposed to share your gift with will reveal themselves to you; just as you revealed yourself to me.
The Greatest Strength
The equalization of past thoughts has now subsided within the reality of your current sights. Nothing ends or begins, as you are now able to witness how it has always existed. This is the internal awakening within your psyche, which you have long been waiting for. You are now able to see the illusions and false realities right before you. The lies the external world propagates on a continuous basis, no longer hold any type of importance for you within your newly realized sights. You are now fully able to understand how the external realm has been built upon lies and bullshit this entire time. The only difference now is that you are able to acknowledge it for what it truly is: nonsense. The sole purpose of the external realm, is to fill your psyche with poison, as this poison will maintain a permanent imbalance within your psychological equilibrium. Never allow the external realities of another to be imposed or impressed upon your way of life. Strength comes in many different forms, yet the strength which arises and evolves from defending one’s self from the external realm’s psychic vampires- is quite literally the greatest strength a true individual will ever possess.
Life is Filled with Human Waste
A physical love letter from your life; addressed to whom you have now become. A child’s hands are delicate and inquisitive. These curious qualities slowly rot away, as we carelessly enter through life’s threshold. Never again will we experience such definitive wonder, questioning, or certainty. Do you really think it is that important to experience these qualities? At certain times, yes; but these times are not sufficient enough to bring forth the inadequateness of an underlying longing for death. It is important to fulfill your nightmares, so the glares of the daylight will fade away into the obscurity, which is your wasted life. Perhaps a wasted life is not necessarily a waste. What is the defining point of not wasting one’s life? Monetary gains? Owning property? Something material and tangible? None of that external waste means anything within these pages. You should know that by now. I consider a life to be wasted, when one lives their life for another, and not for themselves. Life is filled with human waste such as this. Life is only a waste, if you use your time not following your inner guidance. Most of the others are stuck living in survival mode, never finding a way to follow their inner guidance, as many of these others do not know of its existence.
G.G. Kalfas 