Author: ggkalfas

You claim to know me? My type? On what grounds? Some bullshit that happened in your past, in your childhood? Get the fuck away from me. How can you claim to know anything about me, when you do not have the ability to know yourself? My suggestion would be for you to reevaluate your life, beliefs, and stigmas from within your past. Once you have made peace with everything and everyone who has ever fucked you up, then I would like for you to go fuck yourself; all the way, a nice, slow, deep, then hard fucking of yourself. I want to watch as you fuck yourself. I like watching dumb, fucking idiots like yourself fuck themselves; it is a secret obsession of mine. It is a lifelong obsession, you might say. I may even videotape it, and add it to my fuck yourself collection. This will keep you busy enough to mind your own business; allowing you to stop thinking you know who and how someone is at first sight. Never judge that in which you know absofuckinglutely nothing about. You do not know shit about anything or anyone, let alone yourself.

There are false narratives we create within our insecure thought patterns, which do not, and never will benefit our well-being. These false narratives are birthed and given breath by paranoia, fear, anxiety, distrust, and other previous false narratives we believed in to be a way of truth. Ourselves, along with many of the others; have created false narratives within our lives, as we have come into the belief of what is not genuine, over that which is in fact truth. These false narratives will wipe-up, absorb, and twist up your truths right over you; leaving your mind fumbled and disheveled, as you try to piece back together the fragments of your life which no longer make any sense to you. This can be a most painful process; piecing together fragments of your past life, which make as much sense to you now, as they once did when they broke away from you. This process is an ill-equipped endeavor, forever changing you into a whirlpool of confusion. You will quietly and constantly ask yourself within your thoughts, “Why? Why is it like this? What happened to my life? Where did I do wrong?” At first, others will be to blame concerning these cyclical questions, which haphazardly use your mind as their personal playground. Over the course of time, as these questions run riot within your mind; you will eventually begin to acknowledge that you yourself- you were the only one responsible for everything which has happened to you in your life. The fragments, which are the catalysts for these questions swimming around within your mind; were simply part of your life, and everything which comes with it. In life; there is no reverse, just as there is no fast forward. In life; there is simply: now. You must accept this as truth; simply move beyond the limitations of your weaknesses, and especially the weaknesses of your own mind. These ill-manipulated energies within your mind, will eventually wreak havoc upon the outer energies of your material world.

The fragrance is thick with contempt. A ritualistic life-cycle, which has led you astray. The soot of your soul, has embedded itself into you worst nightmare. Now you are living within it on a day to day basis. Cutting or slicing a vein is almost too easy for you. Your special blend of masochistic ideals, hopefully will bring you a more tedious way of departing this mortal (moral) coil. If only you could find a more difficult solution for your solution, how the night would shine upon you. Blissfully glistening upon your rotted deviance. There is no more time to waste. You must get busy at once. All hail the membrane of the dead. You. Cutting corners in life will only give you a piece of what you intended to receive. Nothing more. Your roots are showing. Where you are from. What you have grown. What is now growing. Your roots were originally buried in sand. Easily pulled up. Hard to nurture. Something you never knew. When it was finally given to you. Pushed away. Denied. Along with the love which came with it. You should follow through within your aesthetic, metaphorical, and literal suicide. The only gift you can give to the world. Your finality.

The true obedience within any discipline; this is the true and absolute commitment within the specific undertaking at hand. Do you have this understanding within your life? Bury all of your doubts within the soil of the Earth’s healing heart; she will nourish you back to health, back to who you were, long before you became fractured within your life. The Earth can heal you, even though you may not be able to heal yourself. Trust in her, feel within her nature; become the piety within this bleak, unforsaken, turmoiled society, which unfortunately created you and your mindset. The truth will arise within you, and when it does; seek yourself forth within your truth, and conquer all of the falsities within your body energy field. You will then see yourself, and the world clearly, without any hesitation within your soul’s commitment. Make no mistake, truth is not freedom; it is another form of bondage. Knowing the truth has never set anyone free from themselves, as it has only caused more affliction within one’s own volition. Yet, this revealed truth; is the greatest awakening within the desired commitments of man, and the deeds he projects onto the world. Through truth, these projected commitments and deeds, are seen for what they truly are: the transcendence of fear into truth realized. Fortunately, societal normalcy will no longer exist, once these truths are fully acted upon. This is when the energies, the spirits, come into, and through our convictions; bringing forth the true guidance and assistance needed, to manipulate and manifest through the grit and mundanity of this tribal external world. No more secrets will remain hidden, as you have seen the revelations opened before you, with your own eyes. From this point forth, you will never see life the same way again. Your paradigm has shifted from the external, to the Universal. You can hear the Universal song, you can see the Universal vision, just as you know the Universal thought.

The neurosis will continue to grow uncontrollably; overcoming every part of your being. This is the design of its interwoven, commingling threads; overlapping itself within you and through you, until there is nothing left of the essence which is “you”. It is a uniquely slow and creeping process; overcoming the eternal domain, which at one time belonged to you. You will not have the capacity to recognize it at the beginning, nor at the end; a blinded type of transition from weak into weakened madness. You will be able to see yourself living your life outside of your eyes; watching yourself live a life which was never designed for you. That feeling you get, that specific feeling you get within your solar plexus; you will sometimes find yourself putting your hand over it, as though this will alleviate the stirring coming from within. Nothing will alleviate this stirring once it arises. The only remedy for alleviating this stirring, is to follow through within its overbearing uncertainty. See what happens within it, as you move forward within your experience of life. There will be an internal and external change; take notice this uncertain change, as it is molding you from within and from without. The human life lived within uncertainty is good; as this will allow your disposition to be tested, and molded into a proper character trait. Many of the others will flee from uncertainty once it arrives within their lives. They will try to hide from this unwelcome change within their lives, as though they are actually able to do so. There is no way to hide from the inevitable; it will eventually find you even when you are trying to seek refuge from it. There never will be refuge within uncertainty (life). The only remedy for a fragmented mind, is to seek the darkness, the pain, the suffering, the trauma, the uncertainty, and the paranoia, which can sometimes consume you. Once you have learned to master, and eventually take control of these neuroses; you will be able to master yourself, and eventually take control of your life. When you create the capacity within yourself to come face to face with change, uncertainty, pain, and death; you find that you will finally have the capacity within yourself to be free from all that you once ran away from. For some, life is a carousel; sitting in place, going up and down on a different animal, but only going in circles of distractions through their lives. For others, life is a race; going as fast as they can, to get as much as they can, only to arrive first at the finish line of death. For the rest of us, life is an illusion; knowing the power of the unseen forces effect upon the material world, and learning how to master these powerful unseen forces. (Uoy gnicaf era yeht sa tsuj, sraef ruoy ecaf.)