A Blinded Type of Transition

The neurosis will continue to grow uncontrollably; overcoming every part of your being. This is the design of its interwoven, commingling threads; overlapping itself within you and through you, until there is nothing left of the essence which is “you”. It is a uniquely slow and creeping process; overcoming the eternal domain, which at one time belonged to you. You will not have the capacity to recognize it at the beginning, nor at the end; a blinded type of transition from weak into weakened madness. You will be able to see yourself living your life outside of your eyes; watching yourself live a life which was never designed for you. That feeling you get, that specific feeling you get within your solar plexus; you will sometimes find yourself putting your hand over it, as though this will alleviate the stirring coming from within. Nothing will alleviate this stirring once it arises. The only remedy for alleviating this stirring, is to follow through within its overbearing uncertainty. See what happens within it, as you move forward within your experience of life. There will be an internal and external change; take notice this uncertain change, as it is molding you from within and from without. The human life lived within uncertainty is good; as this will allow your disposition to be tested, and molded into a proper character trait. Many of the others will flee from uncertainty once it arrives within their lives. They will try to hide from this unwelcome change within their lives, as though they are actually able to do so. There is no way to hide from the inevitable; it will eventually find you even when you are trying to seek refuge from it. There never will be refuge within uncertainty (life). The only remedy for a fragmented mind, is to seek the darkness, the pain, the suffering, the trauma, the uncertainty, and the paranoia, which can sometimes consume you. Once you have learned to master, and eventually take control of these neuroses; you will be able to master yourself, and eventually take control of your life. When you create the capacity within yourself to come face to face with change, uncertainty, pain, and death; you find that you will finally have the capacity within yourself to be free from all that you once ran away from. For some, life is a carousel; sitting in place, going up and down on a different animal, but only going in circles of distractions through their lives. For others, life is a race; going as fast as they can, to get as much as they can, only to arrive first at the finish line of death. For the rest of us, life is an illusion; knowing the power of the unseen forces effect upon the material world, and learning how to master these powerful unseen forces. (Uoy gnicaf era yeht sa tsuj, sraef ruoy ecaf.)